sassyjonz
It's Getting Closer!
Feb 11, 2010
I just finished with Pre-op testing and final consent for my DS next Wednesday. People keep asking me if I am excited. I am not excited per se. I'm not sure if it has hit me yet actually. I have so many things to do at work and at home so I am keeping busy. So what I am feeling is this feeling of running out of time.The biggest issue I have are concerns brought up by others on OH about my surgeon. I am trying to reconcile them with the fact that I have talked to my surgeon...I have talked to his patients...I have attended his support group meetings...I have done my research. What these OH critics have offered can be interpreted a lot of ways and I absolutely understand why that information would cause them to choose a different surgeon.
Is this me trying to convince myself that I am fine with my choice of surgeon? Probably, but I can only make an informed decision based on the information I have. And I have done that. I don't have any feeling of dred or worry. The spiritual side of myself knows that this thing is in God's hands ultimately anyway. What I am experiencing is just the wonder of the unknown. That is the best way I can put it. I have no idea what will happen...if I will come through perfectly with no issues or complications, if I will make it off the operating table even. And I am sure I would feel this way even if I had been able to get my 1st choice surgeon, Dr. Smith.
I do know that if I change my thinking from that to visualizing my surgery going perfectly and my recovery going smoothly to me easily walking laps on the ward and getting discharged early to easily taking in fluids and protein and getting through these next few weeks issue and complication free and well on the way to a new thin life that I will be better off.
So that is what I intend to do...focus intently on what I DO WANT and KNOW. I KNOW that God and my deceased, surgery tech mother will be guiding my surgeon's hand with skill and care. I KNOW that there will be no problems during surgery and all will go smoothly. I WANT a smooth recovery. I WANT to get in all my fluids and protein. I WANT to bounce back as quickly as possible. I WANT to get back in the pool in 4 weeks. I WANT to lose all my excess weight and maintain a weight I am happy with and can easily maintain with NO DIETING!
That's what I am going to concentrate on. So yes, I am excited, although reservedly so. I am excited about the new life this surgery opens the door to. I am excited about the health I am in store for. I am excited about the new level of activity I will be able to achieve. I am excited about becoming an athlete.
Rebirth happens next Wednesday, Ash Wednesday as it happens to be. Very appropriately a holy day as I am calling on all my spiritual beliefs to help me through this complex surgery.
It's all gonna work out as I see it in my mind. And I look forward to the new life ahead.
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Atlanta, GA
Location
23.2
BMI
Surgery
02/17/2010
Surgery Date
Aug 22, 2009
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