WhiteWater again! 10/12

Oct 26, 2012

      BTW wear a heavy mm wet suit and water reflecting material- IT WAS WAY TO COLD!!! Somehow I had a black eye and never knew it I was so numb until my Mom pointed the area out today at lunch. great fun to be had though I am out of shape- I so need to get back into exercise soon  as I am loosing muscle and the bell is getting a pooch without even drinking alcohol recently; I have not been on frequently and thought I should share some insight to cold water whitewater rafting at this time of year.

     Next water trip is a Dive in Bonaire as my Mental get away to warmth . ! I have it paid for by working already and saving for expenses for meals and drinking . I so am a multitalented Woman and becoming more OUTSIDE my comfort BOX/ Egg where I have hidden all my thoughts and desires to  be Me- No longer am I thinking" What is it that they want me to answer?" asked for an  opinion or desires. I am learning what I want and need maybe separate realities , now I feel worthy of some wants a well.

     A big stressor ( my youngest child) seems to have learned some lessons and will be home shortly after much begging from her part. It is conditional , yet I feel my mind and inside tighten for war or other difficulties. Stress eating trigger that I pray won't send me into FAT LAND and illness again.

    Work is doing well- SORT OF- changing to new system computer programs after 13 yrs with old system , Hard time for all clinical staff  Slower processing of papers and all due to the learning Curve . This factor does not bother Me yet feel so overwhelmed at times. I have gained a support system despite not knowing them all they seem to know who I am so be it. I am liking the support fee;ling weird not blending  in the background anymore though.

   Good Night  and to all a goods night rest and wellness

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