Everyday is a journey!

May 16, 2014

 I am almost three weeks post-op and have hit a stall. I am very grateful for my success so far. I was able to loose 24lb during my preoperative liquid diet. I began mentally dealing with the fact that food had been much more important to me than I had ever imagined. I had this mantality, that I just had a slow metabolism and my pcos/ hormones had been the issue. My addiction ro sweets and "treating myself" came from the fact my parents always rewarded us with food. I found myself making excuses as to why I deserved that yummy ice cream, cake, drink, fried..whatever. The past few weeks have really opened my eyes to how I view food and how being prepared with healthy options can be a time saver and a treat.

I have had days that absolutely nothing sounds great. I make my protein shake, and can't stand the smell/texture. I am forcing my vitamins down through out the day, as my pouch does not like to handle them all at the same time. I get my water in by eating ice. It allows me to pace myself, as before I was a water chugger.

I have to wake uo determined to have a good day, even if I am achy and tired. My outlook on my self image and caring for myself is shifting as well. I am a mother of four beautiful and healthy kiddos under the age of six. They deserve a healthy mother. I feel catch myself feeling guilty for taking the time to work on myself. I have to remind myself, that that is the reason my weight skyrocketed to 336. As shameful as that was, it will never be that high again. I am 284 at almost three weeks out, and realize that through diligence and work, I WILL reach my goal!

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