ShaunaBinks
NSVs and lots of fun
May 31, 2016
I have been traveling for work alot. i had about 5 weeks of work travel in a row and that really threw off my eating. i still ate low carb but i just didnt feel as in control as i do when i am at home. The scale wasnt moving and i was getting frustrated. So i gave up weighing. I reminded myself that this is a journey , its not over and i am still working it and will be for however many years i have left on this earth.
i did see my psychiatrist this week. They always weigh me. I havent seen her since she signed off on my surgery. Her nurse came in and out and in and out , looking at the computer and then she finally says " did you lose 30lbs since we last saw you?" I could happily reply YES. you see- i didnt know it was 30. I stopped weighing at 24lbs lost! guess what ? I STILL didnt go home and weigh. As am putting on clothes, i am having to move them to a diff part of my closet- the give away pile or i have been saying hmmmm another couple wears of this and then i am going to have to give these up and replace with a smaller size.
My biggest NSV was this weekend. My daughter and i were playing a game, then took our new puppy out, and stayed outside playing outside together for a long time. THIS IS HUGE for me for a couple of reasons- i hate the heat and it was 3000 % humitidty , but was able to acclimate fairly quickly and didnt sweat the whole time AND i had those little nylon running shorts on. I dont wear shorts. I dont like my body in them, but i was comfortable in my skin, i was enjoying playing with my daughter and puppy, i was comfortable outside. These are the reasons i had the surgery. I wanted to be able to do all these things. Yes, i think my loss is slower than most. I think my biggest issue may be the transit time of food through my instestines- its days.. I still suffer terrible constipation, do i dont actally think ( and no, i am not a doctor, ) but my theory is that i dont get the malabsorptive benefit. If its sitting there, yes, its prob. my large intestine vs. small but if its just sitting there, it is probably being absorbed. Dont know, dont care (well i kinda do) Just have to be vigilant about my intake, my water, poop schedule and ramp up my exercise.
Just happy to be comfortable in my body, to be in a great headspace, and grateful to have had this surgery, b/c it has set me on the right path to lasting wellness.
