What is my problem????

Feb 16, 2011

I am 18 months out on February 20th.
I have done well - I lost 220 pounds.  Still, those food demons are creeping back into my head.  I want to eat and eat alot of stuff that I know is not good for me.   Somedays, I think that maybe it would be best to go on shakes/fluids for a few days to get back to basics but eventually the stress of the day catches up and I eat.......and I eat crap.  It doesn't have to be in the house. If it is not there, I go get it.  I know I am worth this battle of weight/health and living a life that I want to live.  I mean I don't hurt physically at all anymore.  I have talked to a therapist about this but in the end, only I can sort out the demons in my head that makes me go to food for comfort.  Today is day 2 of drinking the shakes and fluids. I will throw some yogurt and cottage cheese in there as well.  I need to find my "groove" again.  I don't want the honeymoon period to be over.   Will it be this way forever?  I am tired of the weight struggle.  I need to get in the mindset that this battle is a minute by minute/hourly/daily struggle.  I will get there....I just need to remember what is important.

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