peanutinpa
Upcoming one year surgiversary.....
Aug 16, 2010
And I am not sure how I feel about it. I have 10 pounds to go before I hit goal. I am disappointed in a lot of ways that I am not at goal yet. I should feel good that I am down 190 pounds but I don’t. Well, I should say I do and I don’t. I am not sure that it makes any sense. I am starting to say the “I can have just one cookie and end up eating four or five”. I have done that twice now since last Friday. 2 months ago, I NEVER would have looked at a cookie twice. Sometimes I think I am sabotaging myself. Why would I do that? After yesterday and the cookies, I promised myself that I would get back down to basics. Today is a new day and so far, so good. I am going to take this journey, second by second, minute by minute and day by day. I promised myself one year ago this Friday (August 20th) that it was a new beginning for me and I am renewing that promise to myself today. I am learning to love myself again because I deserve to be loved. For a long time I didn’t believe that but I am….I am worth it. Now, just to stay away from those cookies and carbs, lol.
