NewLeaf
Life update 2018
Sep 23, 2018
i popped back to post an update. It is 2018 and I started my journey over 10 years ago. For those who don’t know my story I started at 282 and hoping my life would change. Went down to 189 (lowest) when I couldn’t eat from gallstones. I Wasn’t a true weight as I was sick and not heathy for weeks
Well my life had changed a lot. My weight stabled out post surgery at 210-220.
A few years ago I saw a photo of me... was in shock. Then I got motivated again and made a few changes. I went down to 180. Then hit the gym hard. This year I have been training hard and fluctuated between 180-190. I was training for a competition and went up to 196. I didn’t sweat it because I was doing everything I could to get fit
This year I have climbed a mountain, done an extreme hike, did a fun 5k, rocked the gym, tried new classes like pound, Zumba, strength, boot camps, and living my best life. I feel strong...sexy and that I have come into my own! I did also become single this year ... kinda weird after many years together.
Looking back ... things I would say
- it’s only a tool... whatever surgery you do...just a tool. Some of my friends have had surgery after me and put all the weight back on plus some.
- Get help ... you can’t do it alone. My best helpers at the weight wise clinic were the incredible dietician and nurse. Building a relationship with them and making small steady progress has kept me going long after I left the program
- Start again... and again... don’t give up. I have PCOS which makes it so hard to lose weight. It is a lifelong issue.
- Be kind to yourself, love yourself at all stages.
- Sometimes you will fall off... get back when you can
- all diets will eventually fail 98%... instead learn your body your metabolic rate (through the dietician) and make small changes that can be maintained.
- Get your vitamin D checked... mine was low and there is some link to weight
- Ignore people’s kindness in trying to give your their advice...listen to yourself... everyone knows deep within something that is right for them and they can do. When I joined the weight wise clinic I gave up diets. But I do still track my food. I use my fitness pal because it’s free and you can scan food labels.
- And find a group to share your struggles. I did a lot alone. But obesity help was amazing for me... I reviewed thousands of posts... made me feel less alone.
- Besides don’t give up... try something new or something you love. I danced like no one was watching at 282... and still do. Tell yourself no one is watching me... I’m going to move and do what I love.. and so what if others don’t like it.
Much love from me to you on your journey
We are all in this together. xoxo
preop to post op
Oct 31, 2009
Here is my story preop-to-postop
Preop--I had lost
I started at 282 went to 245 then 233.5 with the pre-op diet. So about 12lb on the preop. My nut said I would probably lose
Wednesday --Day of operation-I walked in at
As I was lying upstairs the doc came up and talked to me briefly and I asked him if he slept well and had a steady hand today. He said yes and that I was his second surgery today. He asked which operation, I said sleeve even though I was a tiny bit nervous. He said ‘are you sure’ I said yes. Then they wheeled me into the OR and it was very cold in there. I slid over to the table and the female intern (or anaesthesiologist…cannot remember) put warm blankets on me which helped me relax and stop shivering. Another fellow (I think he was also an anaesthesiologist) said sure you don’t just want the band...I said nope too many complications for me. Next thing I know I got a shot (in IV) to take the edge off…then a shot to go off to sleep.
Post op—I woke up in the post op room and felt ok just a bit groggy. After a bit I was transferred to my room. The first night was great I had very little trouble. Nurses at the Royal Alex were absolutely amazing…and very kind. I was up for a bit the first day then slept a bit…then up part of the night and chatted a bit with nurses. I was receiving morphine shots and anti blood clot meds. Nurses asked how I was doing and I told then great but I felt like I had just done 1000 sit ups as it was a bit sore (not bad at all). They asked me several times if I was able to pass gas yet and I thought ‘what a weird question.’ I had a drain in…no big deal although I was wondering how it was going to come out. I had no gas the first day. I called a friend and said it wasn’t as bad as I imagined…
Thursday fever—I woke up with at
Thursday-ok the first part of the day not too bad…mostly relaxed and rested but about mid day the most uncomfortable feeling came. It was from the gases they use to blow up your stomach…all I can say is don’t underestimate the pain of gas. I also had some packing removed at about
Friday—I still had rumblings in my stomach and felt pain from the gas in the morning. Meds helped take a bit of the edge off. I got my drain and IV taken out around
Saturday-woke up and had a lazy morning and worked on getting fluids in. I was able to shower and eat a bit of oatmeal and ensure and liquids in. So far the pain of surgery is not too bad and the gas is a bit better but still there (a friend of mine said it might last up to a week). I feel ok…just taking it easy.
Support-I strongly recommend you have a main support person. My support partner was so great and did a million things for me that nurses could know to do. Helping you wash, organize, helping your brush your teeth, cream, check out your wounds, help you up and walk, remind you to breath and a million other jobs you cant even anticipate. Life was manageable because of my supporter. Ask for what you need and answer their questions honestly. My support partner really asked me tons of great questions…
The other support that was great was stylyn79, she was 9 days out and said that things got a lot better…day 2 was tough and I held onto that hope. There were several others that send me great wishes and good thoughts and prayers, this was also helpful and all the amazing questions were answered here at OH.
Breathing—I think my low grade fever was due to surgery partially and coming out of the antiseptic and the fact that I didn’t breathe deeply. I thought I was breathing when they were checking my lungs however my night nurse mentioned that my breathing was superficial (much to my surprise) and this might be causing a fever. Once I figured that out I started breathing down to my lower stomach. This helped a lot! Breathing is an amazing thing and underrated. So try to practice breathing lots…deeply, it will get you through the discomfort.
That is all for now…hope this helps those pre-op. it is doable, you can make it through and get to the other side. I put on
It is my turn
Oct 26, 2009
I have seen and read many posts and seen many of you have good times (mostly) and great success. I have seen people come and go...and some stick around for a while.
At last it is my turn....I am going in Wednesday for surgery. Yeah me...it is time. Thank you for all your great questions and time spent posting. Even when I wasn't posting...I was reading. I have learned a lot here...thank you all my oh family.
I was 282 when I started...went to 247 before pre-op diet. Went to 233 as of this morning with my liquid diet...and yes I was not perfect on the preop. That is a total loss of 49 lbs. I hope to lose one more pound before tomorrow...I went to my spin class today (exercise) and I am crossing my fingers.
Talk to you all post surgery...wish me luck
Update in March
Mar 23, 2009
I don't feel deprived and on a diet ...just living how I should be living post-op (good choices). The support and great answers on OH have been amazing and it keeps me going and it is wonderful to turn to you and ask questions.
New goal=My hope is to be approved for surgery in a few months and lose another 6-10 pounds. Life is good...
I do feel better even though I have a flu today...
My first blog...a new leaf
Jan 04, 2009
I have researched for hours and hours on types of surgery, success rates, watched each one on orlive and listened to why people regain the weight. I think that people do better with a support team and I would be less likely to gain the weight back, my biggest fear. Surgery is the first step…but keeping it off for life is my goal. I don’t want to be one of those women who take off a hundred pounds…then put it all back on…I would rather it be forever…and so I wait for my team.
Motivation? Why am I doing this? The year plus waiting time has allowed me to reflect on why I am doing this. I have followed the surgery for 18 years and just decided I am now ready…I know it has taken me a long time to get here. I am finally ready to give up anything to be the person I need to be. I am a thinker and so I research lots, then some more, think, research, then I might act. In my world a problem is a problem when it interferes with your life. I now acknowledge that it interferes on many levels. I am close to 40 and have tried everything in the world…I give. I realize if I don’t do something I will soon have high blood pressure, heart disease, and type II diabetes as it runs in my family. I can’t exercise the way I want to anymore, nor climb, or spring out of bed. I have always been heavy but now it is affecting me. I have only told a few people and my partner…it is a personal journey but I realize I need to join a support group as I live in a rural setting. And so my journey begins…along with each person on this board. Good luck to us all New leaf