karmaskorner
Damn you Sonic!
Jan 26, 2011
Okay, I know the title is a little harsh but Sonic just recently added the Red Velvet Shake to their menu. After swimming 2 hours with my college son, we decided to split a shake since we felt like we had burned so many calories swimming that long. Sadly, they taste like heaven in a cup. Later that night and even the next morning, I found myself wanting other "bad carbs" that only add empty calories to my daily diet. I guess I can refer to the Sonic shake as a slippery slope food. Once I have bad choice food I want yet another and another. That refined sugar makes my joints swell, gives me headaches and makes me have cravings that just can't be curbed. You might say "just have willpower" but it hasn't been a strong feature in my life regarding eating and this is something I will always have to work on.I'm still in a holding pattern waiting to hear from insurance. Some people in support group say to stay on your insurance provider to get things to happen more quickly. I guess I will just try to relax and learn as much as I can before that next step happens. It might sound strange but being diabetic, I'm really worried about the whole liquid part of this diet. I have my protein shakes in the mornings but if I exercise I have some times that my blood sugars have been crashing and I have been light headed and feeling rather sick. I usually have to eat some solid proteins to get myself back to feeling normal. I'm not sure how liquids for 2 weeks and then after surgery will work for me. I also don't really have my head wrapped around being diabetic now and what it means for how I have to eat pre-surgery and what it will mean after surgery. There are times I have to eat some candy to get my blood sugar up now. Yesterday after swimming for 2 hours and shopping which delayed my normal eating times, I came home and started cooking and almost blacked out. I sat down and had a few pieces of candy but I know after surgery that won't be an option. I guess I have a lot of questions like that to figure out before this surgery happens.
Another thing weighing on my mind is the surgeon that is doing my surgery has minimal bedside manner. At my first consultation he met many of my questions with, "there are no guarantees." I wasn't asking for absolute answers but what can I expect after surgery. I guess I was hoping for someone with a little more personality but after going through my psychological assessment and discussing it with the psychologist, he reminded me that my doctor is a technician and does that part of his job well. Years ago I had a leg surgery and my doctor had a similar personality so I need to look past that and move on. But I am still wanting to know he has my best interest at heart and will give me information. His physician's assistant is a kind person that listens and answers questions but it still has been weighing on my mind. I hope my 2nd appointment with him goes better???
In the meanwhile, while waiting for insurance approval I have been exercising 6 days a week. I don't always love it-love it but I'm learning to like the way I feel after I get finished. I can walk now without my back hurting, my legs are stronger, my asthma is improving, my joint pain isn't as bad as in the past, I'm starting to get some muscles in my arms(underneath the fat). I have lost 25 pounds and lost one pant size. Okay it is size 24 but I haven't been that size for a few years. I have been able to wear things that I haven't worn in a while. I just have an overall feeling of feeling better.
