irol770
June 11, 2010
Jun 11, 2010
This week I weighed in at 201 lbs. I am so close to being under 200 and I can't wait!!!Yesterday was my son's graduation. I bought a new dress. I shopped all afternoon and tried on dresses that were XL. One fit nicely, but I passed it up and continued looking. But then I didn't find another dress that I liked as much and was too lazy to go back to the original store so I bought a "settle" dress. But then last night when I got dressed I realized it didn't fit quite as nicely as I liked and so I didn't wear it. That sort of brought down my mood for the night.
I have lost 59 lbs. I can see it when I look in the mirror. I can see it when my clothes get too big and things that were way too small now fit. And I usually feel really good about it. But today I feel fat. I think it may be because of yesterday's pictures. I still look so awful in pictures and you can't really see the weight loss much at all. My face is smaller, but I'm still fat and I look it and that makes me sad.
I know that I am on my way to not being fat, and I'm excited about it. So I am mad at myself for feeling this way. But I just feel blah and fat. And I can't blame it on my period because I am over that now. I didn't even gain any weight when I got my period this time. And now is the time of month that I usually feel better about myself now that all the PMS is over. It's strange.
But onward and upward. Maybe we'll go for a nice long walk tomorrow and that will make me feel better.
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Thunder Bay, ON
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25.8
BMI
Surgery
03/17/2010
Surgery Date
Jul 13, 2009
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