AHHH

May 01, 2013

Okay, so the closer I get to my surgery, the bigger emotional wreck I become.  I work full-time overnight.  lately at the end of my shift I have an emotional break down in my car on the ride home.  It begins with, "Oh crap!! I am really going to do this, oooo I don't like surgery, ahhhh why am I so fat."  and ends with, "I'm a nurse, I know that most people do fine in surgery, I will do fine.  This will be great, I can do it!"  I am emotionally exhausted with the back and forth in my mind.  I almost wish my surgery was tomorrow so I could get it over with.  I don't have to loose anymore weight for it, but my Daughter's birthday is the weekend before.  She will be 9 and already made it very clear that I MUST BE HOME for her birthday. 

Anyone have any ideas to let go of the nerves before May 22?

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