Deb Z.

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Wow, I can't believe it's been a month since I've written in here!!  I still lurk on the lap band message board, but have not posted too much lately!  Ok, for now I'll just do a quick update and post op explanation.
On Friday, December 5th, I had a vaginal hysterectomy, bladder lift and some other procedure that I can't remember the name so I'll just say had some reconstructive work done "down there".  I was in the hospital for one night - came home Sat. the 6th at around 7:00p.m.  and I can definately say that compaired to the few other surgeries that I've had in the last 3 years, this one has completely knocked me on my ass!!!  OMG!!  I have sooooo much pain in my bottom that it hurts to sit, to stand, to pee, to pass gas, to even think about having a bm, it just plain hurts, period!!!
I was having bladder problems - meaning that it and my other pelvic organs were falling - medical term was pelvic organ prolapse.  Given my tender young age and knowing this problem wasn't going to get any better, I decided to have it taken care of.  I'm glad I did, but was not prepared to be in this much pain.  I still have Christmas shopping to do, wrapping to do, cards to write, etc.....and am not supposed to drive for at least 2 weeks!!  Not that I think I could actually drive and shop right now...it hurts just sitting here typing this!!
Ok, enough of my whining about that subject.  I uploaded some more pics today.  One from a 5k walk I did a few months ago.  Seems like forever ago that we had warm weather here!  I also uploaded a few w/my dog, Buddy.  Basically those pics were to show off my new short and curly hair do!!  The Tues. before Thanksgiving I had my hair cut about 6 inches and then the next day got a perm.  I absolutely hated it the first couple of days - not too sure I really like it yet - but nothing I can do about it now.  This is the shortest my hair has been since I was about 6 or 7 years old!!!  I figured everyone was telling me how different I look (and in my eyes when I looked in the mirror I still saw the same old me), so I figured I better do something to my appearance to actually make myself look different!!!  Call it a pre-midlife change!
Ok, I'm done for now.  Time to go back to my recliner.  Hopefully I won't be gone for so long from here.
TTFN

This last weekend was probably one of the best weekends I've had in awhile and I'm finally getting the chance to sit down and write about it!!! 

Sat. (18th), we celebrated my father-in-laws birthday at the bar with a party.  (I think I should bring up the fact that my dad owns a bar and technically I am considered a partner, but really more of the owner since my dad has not been able to work in over a year now due to his health.)  Rick opened the bar and I got there by 1:45p.m. with all the stuff I made - taco dip, cucumber sandwiches, & ham rolls.  We had both decided that the two of us were going to bartend for the party/entire day together.  Since I had to bartend, I knew I had to actually spend a little time on myself getting ready, moreso then I normally would anyway.  So I actually wore eyeliner & a little bit of shadow and was able to put on my BRAND NEW PAIR OF LEVI'S!!!!!  YES, I said LEVI'S!!  I actually bought them 2 weeks ago and thought that maybe they felt a little snug in the tushy area, but Sat., they were feelin' sooooooooo freakin' fine!!! 

Even though I see all the people that were invited quite often, I got ALOT of compliments on how good I looked!!  My senior picture is still up behind the bar and I even had one guy tell me that I sure do look like I did in that picture!!  HOLY MOLEY!!!  That is not the first time I've had someone tell me I look like I did when I was 18, so it must be true!!!  Nice to know that taking 100+ lbs. off of me also took off 20+years!!!   

Anyway, the day went by quickly and by the time I left at almost 10:00p.m., I realized that the entire time I was there, I NEVER SAT DOWN!!  I worked the entire time....okay, I did go to the bathroom once, but that was it.  I was able to stand and tend bar the entire day and even though my legs & feet tingled a little once I got into bed, I didn't feel like my feet where going to fall off after a few hours of standing on them!!  I think I even worked a little harder then my hubby, I saw him sitting a few times once the party started to wind down.  Not to mention the fact that I put everything away and cleaned up after everyone!! 

Now here comes Sun. morning.  We get up and get ready to go to church for 10:00a.m. like we usually try to do.  When we go to church we always sit on the same side in the back - the same area my ex-boyfriends parents always sit.  Now just to clarify, this was my boyfriend from 9th grade until a year after we graduated from high school.  I probably would have married this guy in a heartbeat, but it just wasn't meant to be.  Right after we broke up, I started to date Rick and now this Friday (Oct. 24th) we will be celebrating our 16th anniversary.  Anyway, I have never had a problem with my ex's parents and we always say hi to eachother.  We ended up sitting 2 rows infront of them on Sunday.  Of course we got there at the last min., so we sort of rushed in right past them.  When it came time to do the hand shaking/sign of peace, I turned and nodded my head at them to let them know I knew they were there kind of thing.....didn't want to seem rude to them.  So that is about it for the church part anyway.....right after church we went to one of the local family type resturaunts that we usually go to on Sundays after mass.  The ex boyfriends parents go there too!! 

We were in the back of the rest. and almost done with our meal when all of a sudden someone that is walking behind me taps me on the shoulder.  I turn and look and there is the ex bf's dad!!!  He says something like this......"Wow, I haven't seen you in about a month and I can tell you've really lost a lot of weight!!  How much have you lost and how did you do it?"  I tell him that I have lost about 108 lbs. total and that I started on my own in March of last year, then in June of '07 started to see the dietitian and then in Feb. I had weight loss surgery.  He says, "well it is really working, you look great!!"  My husband chimes in and says, "yep, pretty soon she'll blow away with the wind."  I then tell him that I also had the lasek eye surgery in July so no more glasses for me.  Then the ex bf's dad pats me on the shoulder and says again that I look really good!!!!!
I could feel my face was red!!   I also had a smile on my face about a mile wide!  My husband sat and just looked at me....so I asked him what the look was for and he said, "I didn't know if you'd tell HIM the truth."  Now why wouldn't I tell him the truth??  I have no reason NOT to.  I have never kept my weight loss a secret and am rather proud to tell people how much I've lost AND how I've lost it!!!  He wasn't mad or anything, I think he was just as shocked as I was that the ex bf's dad actually stopped and said all that.  I would have LOVED to be a fly on his shoulder when he got back to his table and told his wife.  It would have been interesting to see what she said. 
See, not only did I date their son forever, but their oldest daughter lives in the same area as me and our kids go to the same school now.  This sister I don't think ever really liked me back then - but I sure do make darn sure I say hi to her now whenever I see her.  I make sure I ask how her daughter likes school (she has 2 and the one in school is 2 years younger then my daughter and her youngest isn't in school yet.) and what she has been up to.  If I only had the balls to ask how her brother (the ex bf) is doing.  He ended up getting married and moving only about 30 min. away, but I still have not seen him in about 7 years or more.  Over a year ago I would have died if I would have run into him, but now.......now I feel I would strut my stuff and make him look twice at what could have been his!! 

Oh such nasty thoughts, I know.  But it's moments like these that happened over the weekend that make me feel like I'm on cloud nine and it gives me more insentive to want to get in more excersize and keep working very closely with my wonderful band!! 

As of this morning (21st) I am down to 169.2!!!  Yesterday I weighed 168.6!!  This means that I am only 19.2 lbs. away from goal!!!! Yippee   It is so amazing how much self confidence is gained by watching the scale go down!!!  Did I mention that I was able to wear LEVI'S????  I had my friend take some pics on Monday, I have to get them up loaded so I can post them on here!! 
Ok, I am done rambling, plus my hands are freezing from sitting here and typing.  Hopefully be back sooner to keep this more up to date!!