Vent - It's lengthy and I'm babbling....

Dec 17, 2010

 Today is one of those days where just about everything pisses me off.  And I do mean everything.  There's a possibility I'm PMS'ing, but I wouldn't know since my period has been completely all over the place since my surgery.  It's slowly working itself out, but it's still crazy.  (Menopause?  Where are you??)

I've had some pretty serious anger issues since the surgery.  I'm blaming hormonal upheaval from rapid weight loss.  

There was even a post on the main board here at OH from someone I deeply respect, and it pissed me off.  I try to stay off the main board these days.  Newbies with their sunshine and light and vets complaining about everything and how the surgery is pure evil.  SIGH.  

Yes, I have life changing issues from the surgery.  I deal with them every single day.  Will I be dealing with them 5 years from now?  Most likely.  Will I experience the dreaded weight gain?  Most likely.  But I can't blame that on anyone but myself.  And at 15 months post op, I make sure I look at pics of myself from 2 years ago and that's incentive enough to keep my tool working.
I was never one of those newbies that spouted sunshine and light.  I always tell it like it is.  I'm that way with everything.  
The post kinda lumped all the newbies together and made them sound like they were too unintelligent to know what they were getting into.  I find that insulting.

My little rural community that I live in, play in and work in was not big into information when it came to Gastric Surgeries.  The old adage was if you lost a lot of weight fast, and then managed to regain all of it and more, you must have had your stomach stapled.  Fail.

So when I started researching what options were out there for me, there wasn't a lot to go on.  I didn't know about this website, and I only knew that the Lapband was performed in MB but to the tune of $18,000.00, yikes.  I can afford to be fat...
Then I saw a friend whom I hadn't seen in a very long time and she looked fabulous!  I sat her down and we had many long talks and she told me the good, the bad and the downright ugly.  She didn't hold anything back.  So I considered myself educated...

My friend has had some serious complications.  And she's had some regain, which might be why she's currently avoiding me.  However, I do not regret my decision.  How could I?  I RUN up and down my stairs at home now when I do the laundry.  I used to have to crawl up the stairs because my knees hurt so incredibly bad.  There were days the laundry just didn't get done because the pain was just too much.

Time will only tell what kind of complications will occur due to my RNY, but wouldn't the co-morbidities from being obese be a lot worse?  Heart failure, strokes, arthritis...etc.

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