Shroomy
Stall? Or is this it?
Apr 11, 2010
2 weeks ago I was over the moon about hitting 197, and today I'm still there. Needless to say my mood has taken quite the downward spiral.UGH!!!
It's real difficult to stay positive and I find I'm beating myself up over everything. I'm second guessing everything I do. My exercise, my 100 or more grams of protein each day and my little to none calories. I'm very conscience of my Carb count and even though I feel like snacking all evening long, I don't!
I look in the mirror and I find the reflection not very attractive at all. My hair is still falling out and it's so thin. My chin is all wrinkly(no longer a double, but this isn't much better) and my eyes have that sunken in gaunt look.
My mood swings are still raging. And my memory is non-existent.
I really don't like myself right now. No, I do not have regrets about having surgery...that would be stupid, but I do regret some of the extreme hardships that this journey is taking me on.
I want to be a positive role model and I want to support others in this journey, but it's really difficult when I can't even support myself.
I hope to God this is just a stall, and not where I'm gonna end up. I take my measurements on the 14th for my 7 month surgiversary, and I have a feeling not much has changed and that will just not help my mood and state of mind.
I seriously hope anyone reading this doesn't get too discouraged, but at least I can say I'm honest and I hate sugar coating stuff.
UGH!!! Time to go to work...
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About Me
S MB, XX
Location
24.7
BMI
Surgery
09/14/2009
Surgery Date
Jun 26, 2009
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