munchies
I eat over everything... happiness, stress, anger, tired, boredom,
just eat eat eat.... i have done this for years. having the sleeve
and following my doctors food plan has enabled me to change some
habits... but after losing and getting close to goal, some of this discipline
has let up at times and yes I am maintaining which I am happy... has it let up because
i am close to goal? ( i feel like I am at goal) or because my sleeve is bigger or just dont
have the same lil restriction as just getting out of surgery? I dont know..... but
I know that I am not as dilligent and commend the vets who are. I still havent
eaten recreational sugar. I eat 85% clean food and 15 % i enjoy foods that I normally
wouldnt eat but in small portions.
Ok here it goes.. the first love of my life ( puppy love ) I was 14 and I think he was 17
or 18 cant remember. anyhow.... he left me for another girl... ms popular and gorgeous
back in high school. well.... we didnt end it pretty and he hated me for years.
recently we both made ammends and long story short we are meeting for the first
time in years on a good note and to hang out tomorrow. yes I have talked to him and have seen him around over the years but he always resented me. This time its different because he wont be mean or resentful. mean as in snotty remarks. We are just friends and friends only.
however I am nervous and feeling anxious. Its also night time right now where I battle with my head and the munchies which is nothing new ( something I accept). That has never changed.... I am just not sure how to act or have no clue as to what to say. yes I am projecting!!!!
I am soooo use to him being resentful at me over the years, and distant. I have prayed for this
for years. since I got sober about 19 years ago. I havent hung out or talked with him in 27 or 28 years. Also we are going to a church group tomorrow... this is something I have prayed about.... it brings tears to my eyes really because my true prayers have been answered,..... all this is good.... but I am feeling anxious
about how to act... so what do I want to do??? eat... eat when I am not even hungry.
Growth.... I am talking about it and not acting on it. This is pretty cool.
Now i just have to get through the night and not eat even 2 or 4 or 8 oz.
Thanks for listening. It helps...
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuugs
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"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
I don't know what the point of my post is but I just wanted to respond. You used to like this guy so maybe your anxiety has something to do with this. Take a
deep breath & know you'll have a good meet up with this guy. Everything's all good, you know? Just be yourself & have fun tomorrow. Maybe keep us posted?
gosh that didnt make sense.
Thanks for your support and response. it all helps.
I am hanging here to keep my mind off going downstairs...lol
and I wont go downstairs... but it doesnt mean I am not struggling with it
tonight.
Oscars are this weekend Sunday... are you going to watch it???
I posted last sunday who is going to watch it tonight... silly me i had the wrong
weekend.. its this weekend!!! yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! ( i hope..lol)
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuugs ✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
Cant wait to see the gowns! hair! and I hope its good. I love the grammys because they always put on a great production and its music!!!!!
✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
coming here to post was a good thing. trying to get your mind off of it. i sometimes get the munchies too and sometimes i cave. VSG can only do so much so its up to us to make the right and wrong choices.
There is a boy in my life and when im thinking about things with him or upset or worried sometimes it brings back those feelings of wanting to eat, too. i hate that.
I will be thinking about you, i hope tomorrow goes well and any resentment can be dropped. my only fear for you is if feelings of unworthiness creep into your mind about yourself, if seeing him will rehash feelings of being not good enough you may have had when he left you for the popular chick. i find myself unable to interact with some people who bring up emotions like that in me. im hoping negative feelings or thoughts do not enter your mind tomorrow.
You are going to get through tonight and tomorrow and the rest of your life will be beautiful. i am so proud of you, mary.
HW: 258lbs SW: 240 CW: 140 I am 5 foot 7 and 30 years old
VSG 12/21/10 Plastics: Tummy tuck, breast lift, and augmentation 11/3/11
Soon to be veterinarian!! xoxo
So I made it through our visit and it actually turned out well. We both choked up a little with
our ammends to one another. We are completely two different individuals and I feel like
i gained a friend. It was actually special. Friends only....
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay for the new man. is it the same one you met and posted about sometime back?
I hear you about not interacting with some who bring up emotions. WOW that is powerful
awareness in itself. Thanks for saying this. Sometimes I dont realize I get the food thoughts just because I dealt with someone or something just moments ago and want to run to the frig.
becoming aware of food behaviors and wanting to change them is kind of cool.
nope i am not perfect at all... buts its kind of cool to become aware. Before I just
ate and ate and ate all day long and didnt care. Isnt cool that we care for ourselves today?
and we continue to change for the better>?
You have inspired me in so many ways.... Keep posting...
Huuuugs
✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
Someone once told me that what we saw when we were younger was seen through young eyes and processed with the mind of a young person. To look at the same thing when you're older you will see it with older eyes and a more experienced mind. That will make it look different.
I wish you all the best.
donna
Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple~Dr.Suess
