Winchy
What's going on in my mind!!!
May 16, 2012
So I haven't been on here for a while, figured I should blog maybe someone would read it... Soooo its May and my appointment for the PFT is almost here. I remember when I called again to get the appointment sooner and the nice lady I spoke to found something in June and I thought OMG I have to wait 2 freakin months, this SUCKS ASS, but then again at least it isn't in JULY.. So I guess I should be happy right..?? I started thinking about this whole journey and what's ahead for me and even though I am happy that I decided to go through this I am also scared and nervous that I won't get approve, being the fact that I have no medical issues except that I am FAT. I remember my cousin telling me she got denied not once but twice so though I don't want to think negative I can't help but to have that in my mind. Since beginning this Journey in January I have went from 256 to 245 ( well last time I checked) which is not bad but then again I feel like I am no longer losing weight I eat less but than again I don't do much exercise but still I should at least lost 5lbs in 2 months..IDK I guess I just get too frustrated with myself.One thing I have notice is I don't eat much which I know they say we should but what happens when I'm not hungry I eat at least 3 times in a day and my meals are lunch dinner and a late snack( cuz I get really hungry at night and it's because I eat dinner to early like 3:30 or 4) anyway another thing is I don't drink water a lot but its cuz I'm not thirsty, so what does this mean?? Do I have to force myself to eat during the day or drink water if so this is so gonna suck....
