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Well I haven't lost anything in  a while. I'm going up and down between 300-315lbs since June 2009. Some days I am 312lbs and some days I am 305lbs. I have a lot of excess skin even though I had the surgery when I was 19, I was hoping my skin would be okay but my age didn't matter. It's flabby and gross and there's a LOT of it.. Under my arms, my stomach and even more so my thighs. I'll never have a love life now.

It seems the donating your skin to burnt victims is a myth, it doesn't exist. So I'm stuck with it unless I can lose it on my own cause can't pay for the removal. I really need  to lose another 150lbs too. I'm (hopefully going to get some exercise equipment so I can work out at home. Stationary Bicycle for like $200.. Hope that'll help, I'm not sure? Got to burn more calories than I take in is how to lose weight. So I got to count my calories and make sure I burn more than that.

Wish me luck..
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PS. I added 3 new pictures...

Nothing new, not losing any weight..
Back to old ways before surgery..
So upset with my surgeon and all those people there..
They act like they want to help you but they only care about the money!
When we go they say "We're gonna do this for you, don't worry. We'll get you the surgery."
They lie, they only want the money! They know our insurance can't cover it and they know we don't have the money!
It's $8000.. That's what we need.. We don't have it though, so whatever..

And to think I gave them nice and wonderful praise and reviews on here..
When we were waiting for months to hear from a guy up there. We would call everyday and he's always busy or out and the lady on the phone said "I will be sure he calls you tomorrow!" He doesn't, we call HIM and we get HER saying he can't talk right now. We were waiting for months just to hear about some tests or something. I forget...

I'm 300lbs, I lost 256lbs.. Yeah, that's great. PLEASE do not tell me it's great and to keep it up and way to go and that's a lot! I heared it all before, I know it's true. It is great.. I was 556lbs.. but I can't lose the weight anymore.. It's been over 2 years..and I'm 300lbs! I'm 22 years old.. I want to lose the rest and I can't do it by myself. I have no support IRL, nobody to do things with. I have absolutly no friends IRL as I been hidden in the house since High School cause I was ashamed to be seen. I've no car or license as I couldn't fit behidn a wheel or wear a seatbelt..

IM STUCK! I'm stuck on being fat and stuck with having NO LIFE!
God, someone help me..
-sighs-

We went to the wrong hospital.. We went to where we went lastime to get my scope done.. but he built his own hospital type place thing this lady told us and so we have to reschedule, call Monday.. Oh well.. Waiting for Monday then to know when we'll do this..

Tomorrow morning I'm having my Stomach Scope, I've had one before so it's no big deal. He's going to see how much my stomach stretched and see if I need a revision surgery. Which I know I do. I just hope if he does say he wants to do one on me, that insurance can pay for it..

Two new pictures, me and my sister picked my dad up and took him out to eat, we hadn't seen him over a year and a half ago.. And before that it was another few years. So it was a good time for me. Although on the way back we brought our puppy who threw up in the car and .. uh.. .. I  don't think I should say what else.. but it was bad.. very bad. and stinky.

So yeah! Two new pictures from today! I got a new haircut from my sister, Stephanie! She's awesome! She works at Floyd's Barber Shop! (Men and Women cuts)

Also a body shot of me so you can see I'm not as skinny as I may look in these face shot! I wish though! Oi.. I hope I can reach my goal soon.. Beh..

So I am thinking I am hypoglycemic, not sure yet but I am pretty sure. I'll get it checked out soonish...

Also I had a consult about a revision with Dr. Barker.. We had to wait 4 hours just to see him in his waiting room, only to speak to him for 10minutes.. He seemed very doubtful and negative about me getting the revision.. I am not completely sure why, he seemed as if to think I am fine as I am, or that I'm just lazy. Well I am 315lbs, hypglycemic probably if not diabetes and most people get this surgery because they're the weight I am right now.

Anyways, he did make an appointment to give me a EGD (Stomach Scope) to look at my stomach pouch, to see if I actually do need a revision.. which I know I do and I hope I get it. That's not the only problem though.. I'm on my mom's comanies health insurance and they wouldn't cover my previous WLS, we were self pay (Thanks to my grandmother, if you read my story on my profile)

So I am not very hopeful that I will get this..

 Okay I been meaning to find out what this is, if anyone else has gotten it..

Symptoms are in order, somewhat..
Mild Lightheadedness
Uncomfortableness
Hot Flash starts to develope and gets worse slowly, mild sweating all over...
Completely and totally drained, weak all over but mostly my arms.. hands alittle bit shakey if trying to hold something.
Can barely move because of the weakness in my arms, shortness of breath, still hot and sweating..

I usually, since I can feel it coming on before I am totally drained.. I go lay down in front of a fan in my mom's room till it passes.. and I will ask my mom to get me Sunny Delight with some fruit.. I find bananas really help for some odd reason.. Why bananas? It seems to make it go away very fast..

It's been happening everyday the past three days now though compared to it happening maybe once every 2 months.

It lasts anywhere from 5 or 10minutes to 30minutes..

I do not know what causes it.. I'll just be watching TV or on my computer and I feel it coming on.. Today it happened and I hadn't had any sugar, I hadn't even ate anything all day.. Other days I will have had food and it still happens. So I do not think it's to do with eating too much or not enough.

 My mom told me today that she was talking to a doctor at her work and they were talking about Redo WLS.. and how my surgeon Dr. Barker does them.. and how it's listed as a medical surgery and not plastic surgery.. so Insurance will be more likely to cover that.. We had to be self pay for my previous WLS.. only got the money cause my Meme who passed away shorlt after.. So yes.. Perhaps I can get insurance to pay for this Gastric Sleeve so I can lose the rest of my weight.. I now weight 315lbs.. I've lost 241lbs..

I added up three new pictures, one being a Before/After face photo.

Emotional eating. I feel really depressed right now and all I want to do is just eat something, I don't even know what but it's really hard to not go in the kitchen and just get something to eat. I just want to EAT something to satisfy me.. I guess because nothing else will. Food is always there for me.. Well my leftover lasagna is ready. *Hear microwave beeping* I just feel like I really need it and I won't be happy without it.. Maybe it will make me happy even for just a second or two.. Goodbye. ._.

Some people, I wont say names, pretend to care and be nice in the forums and on OH.. Even go as far to adding me to their friendlist.. but when I comment their pictures, or send them a PM.. I get nothing back.. What a jerk.. Seemed like a nice person, succesful in weightloss.. looks great.. but I guess little ol fatty me isn't good enough to talk to. Whatever.. I don't want to associate myself with a person like that anyways then..