17 Months Out...I'm a snail

May 22, 2009

So, i'm almost a year and a 1/2 out, and I have no regrets.  I started out with a lower BMI than most (mid 30's), and I had about 90 pounds to lose.  I have lost about 60 of those pounds so far.  I have been at a stall since about 9 months out.  I did go from a size 22 to a size 12/14...I am whoah pleased with that.  I have been frustrated with my stall so to speak, but I think my body is just comfortable with where I am.  I am currently trying to kick start my weight loss to shed those last 30 pounds. 

It is totally my fault, of course, since i loathe drinking water (or pretty much anything for that matter), and I am totally allergic to exercise.  I keep saying I'm going to do it, but I don't.  I just try not to beat myself up about it.  I was a self-pay, and I would pay that money all over again because, besides losing the weight, I lost the self loathing that I had each and every day for so many years.  I was in such a deep depression about my weight.  Some days it was all i could do to get out of bed.  I no longer have that feeling.  That $12,500 was a small price to pay to start loving myself again.

I love my baby belly.  I love my new weight.  I just owe it to myself to see this journey to the end...the end is my goal weight of 145 pounds. 

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