1 year out and 131 lbs down!

Sep 30, 2009

Hey OH fam!  I made it to my 1 year bandiversarry.  I got my annual esophogram done and my doc said everything looked great!  I didn't make my goal of losing the 189 lbs that I set out to but 131 lbs isn't too shabby right?  I got tripped up by some food temptations recently (fell back into some of my old habits) which had me in a rut (which explains why I'm 2 lbs higher than my last post.)  But, I've overcome them and am FINALLY back on the loser's bench...where I plan to stay!  This silicone tool (my band) around my stomach really does make a world of a difference for me.  There are many times where I forget its there and just try to do what I want.  But sooner or later it yells at me and says, "LOOK WE HAVE WORK TO DO!  AND GOALS TO ACCOMPLISH SO STEP AWAY FROM THE DONUTS!"  Yea donuts are my weakness ya'll...I was a regular at ALL of the dunkin donuts and I am NOT a coffee drinker at all!  But that has changed like so many other things.  What a difference a year makes?  Last year around this time (pre-band) I was about a size 28 wondering if I'd have to be shopping for size 30s at the age of 25.  And now I can fit size 14s. 

Its almost bitter-sweet though OH because when people ask me how much I've lost and I say "130 lbs!"  I know they're thinking (and I think it too) "you've lost 130 lbs are still obese (228 lbs is still obese @ 5'8 but no longer morbidly)."  I know its a great accomplishment but I can't help but think, "wow I was almost 400 lbs!"  How could I have let myself get that way?  And even worse how was I able to get away with it for sooooo long?  When I talk about this with family and friends they're always like, "we would never have let you get to 400 lbs Sara."  I'm like well you let me get to 359 lbs.   Thats close enough!  And the fact of the matter is OH my family and friends (or anyone else for that matter) can't/could not help me no matter how much they love me.  Because this is something you truly have to want for yourself.  And you have to want it bad enough to go after it at whatever cost.  And also because they have yet to over come their own weight issues (although none as extreme as mine.)  Either way OH I'm done looking at into the past...onward and upwad is my motto! 

My latest and greatest goal is to be no more than 199 lbs by the years end (I have NEVER seen that # on MY scale!)  What a joyous occasion that will be!  I'll be sure to keep you posted!

Sara

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