Why did I have WLS ?

Aug 05, 2013

   July 15th, 2013 I FINALLY had gastric Bypass Surgery .  It took a long time to get there ! A few denials , switched surgeons but hey it all worked out !   

   Today I'm 3 week post op . I know, a little late in posting. I had planned on posting just after surgery. 

    I'm shocked at how fast I'm losing. Down 47 lbs in 3 weeks . In the past it took a few months to lose that much.  I assume the majority is water since I'm still wearing the same clothes, but they are getting baggy.  

   So far so good with the side effects.  I always heard horror stories about people who have had weight loss surgery. I've been able to eat  everything I try. Of course it's a very short list of foods.  Such as cottage cheese with pineapple , low fat yogurt, split pea or lentil soup    .  For a treat I have a teaspoon of peanut butter.  All high in protein.  I'm really hesitant to do protein shakes. That's how I lost so much weight back  in 2005 .  I just can't get over that chalky taste.  I'll need to soon so I can get all my 80 grams of protein in .  

 I have been in food therapy with eating disorder specialist for the past 2.5 yrs . We worked on a lot of things and she worked with me until she thought I was in a good place for surgery. I didn't just wake up one morning and think,  "Hey lets get gastric bypass surgery ! "  In fact I was very against it for a long time.    

   When I had my son Xander  on 9.8.10 , I almost  died. A week after my c-section my OBGYN had a very serious talk with me and told me he really didn't think I'd make it though child birth.  At the time of delivery I had  two of the top surgeons operating on me. Also a team standing by with the paddles to shock me back to life.  It was a scary time.  Lots of whispers and people moving around. Every little sound I'd make they got anxious asking if I was Ok, where did it hurt etc. 

   A few weeks later I tried weight watchers  prescription diet pills and a few others, just wasn't getting much weight off . At as heavy as I was the risk for stroke, diabetes, heart attack was growing each day.  Losing 2lbs a week wasn't going to cut it .  I needed to lose weight and fast. 

   Anyhow that's why I had the surgery . To save my life. The risks out weighed the side effects. 

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Husbands Support is Priceless

May 23, 2013

After 3 yrs of research and months of trying to get approved, I finally have a date ! July 16th. Now to try and lose that 10% .   In the midst of waiting for approval , then being denied, my husband wrote this to me.  

Fast forward until this past Tuesday , I got the call, I'm approved ! Surgery dates set for 7/16/13 .  

Read this letter my husband wrote me last week. We were in the midst of being denied.  He's away at war right now , thousands of miles away he still gives me butterflies. I'm blessed beyond belief to have a man that loves me so much.   

Sarah - 

From all the emails it sounds like your doctor’s office has been doing all they can to help you. It’s just so annoying that this new company is being so terrible. I mean what if you needed heart surgery or something else life threatening and they resist that. Just sucks.

If you don’t get the surgery, you can always lose the weight on your own, it is physically possible. It’s just a harder and longer process. We are all creatures of habit. Once you break your bad habits of not exercising and over eating, and then create new habits of a healthy diet and daily exercise, then your body changes. It’s just a very difficult process, even more difficult because of the boys, and because I’m gone. You didn’t do anything wrong, you just haven’t had the opportunity. Like going away for 6 months on Biggest Loser and devoting every single day of your life to exercise and healthy eating. I get it, that is a very hard thing to do. Once you make up your mind and commit to the process and give yourself the opportunity to make it happen, then it will. It will be a sacrifice you have to choose to make for your family. The surgery just makes this whole thing easier.

As always, tell me what you need from me to help. Day care, gym membership, personal trainer, meal replacement shakes, whatever it takes. I care more about you than money, so don’t let anything hold you back from making this a reality. I mean            thirty thousand to pay for the surgery ourselves is not realistic, but you know what I mean. Surgery or no surgery, your lifestyle is going to have to change. Tristan, Xander, and I all need you in our lives, healthy and happy. 

And of course I always love you.

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Just a little venting

Dec 07, 2011

Hi All,
  I've been reading a lot of your blogs and looking at before/after pictures. Absolutely amazing. I'm so proud of you all for doing this. It's not an easy decision to make.  
   A little background on me. I'm a military wife, and my husbands deployed. Before he deployed he wrote me a letter that said  I need to lose weight for my health. To be around for my boys. To have a better life.  Also that in his position as a Military Officer that men are to respect him and if they new he had an over weight wife he would lose the respect he's worked so hard to get.   Fast forward 6 months to today. I received a call that there is a welcome home party and all the wives and kids of the Marines are to come with their banners. I emailed my husband to see if he wanted me to go.

 This was his response.  

I would rather call you and have you pick me up after I'm done with everything. 
   Yes, a small part of it is me being embarrassed, I'm sorry, please don't be too upset.

 Really ?!  How do I NOT be upset?  It broke my heart. We haven't seen one another in months and he just wants me to sit in the car, where no one will see me.  I wrote back, upset to say the least.  

His response to that was :

If you understood the culture of the Marine Corps you would see what I'm dealing with.  Marines with overweight wives is a running joke, they even put comics in the Marine Times making fun of Marines who are married to overweight wives.  I hate it, I absolutely hate the position I'm forced in, but its something I can't change.  Being an officer, being a company commander, I'm in the spotlight, everyone looks to me to be the example, to follow my lead.  I can't do my job if anyone has any doubts about me, however messed up and wrong those doubts are about me and my ability to do my job, it doesn't matter, because in the Marine Corps, perception is reality.   
With you at a healthy weight, everything in our lives will improve.  But remember something very important - Its not your fault Sarah.  Its not your fault.  Its just life.  It just happened.  But we can change it.  You have a solution now and I know everything will get better.       I love you very much  .              
 

So I know he loves me, it's just hard to hear. But it's just another reason I need WLS.  More than anything I want it for myself. I want to love myself again. Shop in normal stores. Stop obsessing about food.  I need a clean slate with food.   I need to be selfish and do this for me. My family will reap the benefits. 
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