nycaela

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I can't believe tomorrow at this time I will be in surgery! I'm telling you it still hasn't hit me yet. I've been totally calm and collected about it. I don't know if tonight I'm going to start getting anxious or if it's going to be at 5am when I'm checking-in at the hospital. Who knows.

This is probably one of the biggest steps in my life I've ever made on my own but I knew right away this is what I wanted. 

Can't believe my surgery is in two days. Like honestly, it quite hasn't hit me yet. I'm still just like, "okay, surgery two days, I have awhile." But in reality, I don't have awhile. Today is my last day of work until it is okay for me to go back to work. I'm almost like do I really want to go? Not really, but I'll go anyway.

I'm on day seven of the clear liquid diet. I'm getting used to it finally but the protein shakes are just getting sickening. I'm wanting to try the Syntrax: Nectar protein powder. I think it'll be a good alternative compared to chalky chocolate. I've lost interest in Jell-O but I'll continue to eat it. After I'm done with my post-op clear liquids phase I'll probably never eat Jell-O ever again unless it's absolutely necessary. There really needs to be more choices when it comes to clear liquids. 

The anxiety and nervousness hasn't really hit me yet. We'll see about tomorrow night though. I probably won't sleep a wink.