This is not easy

Nov 05, 2009

I am so tired of Smoothies, protein drinks and popsicles. I don't care if I ever see them again, yet I am sitting here drinking a smoothie now. I am on soft foods this week. Eating my baked fish was truly Heaven! I realize that I really don't have a lot of restrictions and have to force myself not to overeat. I am scared that I will have gained weight by the time I go on Nov 30 for my first fill. I get hungry and can eat more than I thought I would be able to. I pray for control. I weighed myself today and I still weigh 296. Haven't gained nor lost. However, I will be placing my scale in my garage because everytime I step into the bathroom, there I go jumping on it. I am ready to really start loosing the weight. God is truly amazing, because I used to wake every morning with some type of pain. 20lbs gone and the pain has gone with. Glory be to God!

Ju Taun

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