mom23kme
Emotional Day, with Emotional Eating!
Mar 11, 2011
I am having an emotional day. My dearest friend in the entire world is in crisis, and I can't get to her! Her dad is dying, and I so want to be by her side. I can't get my shifts covered in the ER for the weekend, so I sit here until Monday. He will be gone by then. With his impending death floods so many emotions.He was a mean, hate filled man most of his life. He knocked her around and left her with many emotional scares. I remember her running over to our house when we were teenagers to get away from him. She knew my dad would protect her, and that her dad was not man enough to stand up to a real man. When she got married, he told her he was going to take a gun and shoot her and everyone there. My dad again saved the day, he went over and sat with him to make sure he didn't leave the house. He has continued through out her adult life to mess with her. He is nice to her one visit and verbally abusive the next.
I guess he only gets to hurt her one more time. At his death. Then maybe her heart can feel some peace. She is such a dear sweet person. It is a shame that he never took the time to get to know who and what she is. His terrible loss. She is a kind, giving, and loving person. He has been in a nursing home for the past several months and she has gone everyday, to wash his clothes and make sure he gets fed. I guess no matter what they do to you, you still love them. I will be glad when he can no longer cause her any pain. He has hurt her enough for a lifetime!
Along with all this emotion, I am finding myself looking through the cabinets. I have eaten 4 pringles chips and 4 mini oreos. My stomach is rolling, I think I may loose it. That would be a blessing at this point. It would make me feel better. I have not had too much trouble with emotional eating up to this point. I guess it is all still a learning experience for me.
So today...OH is my counselor...my outlet...my listener....and my friend. I hope my out poring of emotions has not offended anyone, but if it has then maybe you too have abused someone and need to ask for forgiveness, the Lords and the person you abused. Life is too short to leave a mess behind. One "I'm sorry," could have made such a difference to my friend. But he didn't have the spine to say it. You don't get a second chance.
