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Well my story begins like A lot of us. I have been struggling with my weight for over 30 years. I have tried everything from having my mouth wired, to L A weight Loss, and Weight Watchers. You name it I have tried it. I have had high blood pressure problems and I became a bad diabetic. I also had very low self esteem so I settled for whatever life dual me, in every area of my life.I was like A doormat I tried to make everyone else happy and not myself .MY wake up call came when my Doctor told me I may have to take 5 pills because of my blood pressure problem's I knew that I had to change I tried to exercise, but I was out from work for 3 days because I did 30minutes on the treadmill .I was so frustrated with myself I felt hopeless, and I got very angry about my life and my weight. I went to my doctor over the course of about 2 years we tried to pills the diet counselors and it just wasn't working . On one visit he asked me how I felt about surgery at first, I was aganist it I felt like I would be taking the easy way out.But that all changed after one group meeting. Then my process began, I put all my paper work in to my doctor in 1/30/05 we then began with the appointments to the Psychistic,Diet Counselors and everyone else. It seemed like I was never going to be done with all the requirements needed to get this surgery. But by 4/26/06 we stared to submit all the paper work to my insurance company which was Aetna and that is when all the fun began. They refused me at first and It hurt so much, my doctors nurse Kim at DR IGBALS office she is a GEM told me not to worry because they do change requirements from time to time so be prepared for this. anyway by 6/26/06 I was APPROVED what a JOY my DATE was 9/13/06 but I still had more pre-test to get through and it wasn't easy but with the help of GOD I got through it ok and had my surgery I came out like a champ. I learned alot about myself, some I wanted to know and some just hurt alot, I never knew how much of my life was consumed by food it was bad it has been 8 months now at the time I had my surgery I weighed 271 I now weighed in at 180 I go to the gym 5 days a week and my knees don't hurt now I went from a size 26/28 uniform to a women's medium WOW!!!!!!! and this is only 8 months MY GOD I CAN'T WAIT any way I feel great and I am know longer a doormat I do say how I feel and I know in life you will never make everyone happy but you can please yourself and do the best you can. If that is all god wants from you it will be good enough for everyone else. I will be posting some pictures of myself soon please everyone be encouraged this is worth the journey the weight is just a little piece of it My God I HAVE NOT FELT THIS GOOD IN YEARS.

UPDATE
I now weigh 170...I've lost 100 pounds and I couldn't believe it!!! Even now I have to look in the mirror and realize it's really ME staring back at myself. I haven't been called skinny in like FOREVER!!!! My family keeps saying OMG Your so small now!!!! I have 35 more pounds to shed before I am at my goal weight of 135. I am sooooooooooo blessed to have people in my life that love me regardless of my size. Though I have to say it is GREAT to see the looks on people's faces that judged me when I was bigger--these are the same people who now are telling me I'm TOO THIN!!! AS IF!!!!

This was how I looked before the surgery... pre op 271

This is me in my new home taken this past April. I weighed 188

Me @ Pizza Hut with my daughters but as you can see--I'm Not Eating!!! Taken in January Weight was 199

This was me in December 3 months post op weighing in apprx. 216.

I seriously need to update my pictures. My daughters have tons of pictures of the new me!!!!

My Inspirational Corner...
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

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