MARIA F.
a little about me
Jul 28, 2007
Its funny to me to think back when I was a child my mother would sit at the table with a belt in her hand to force me to eat. I hated food so bad I did not like to eat at all gimme some juice water or small cup of milk never been to happy with milk but had it on ocassion, I was fine with just that.
Sometimes I think my mother should be slapping herself for doing that she would of never wondered her sack of skin and bones would end up weighing almost 300 #.
Well to make a long story short I was born with some intestinal malformaties that were fixed before i had turned one you ever see a baby with a tube sticking out of hie/her belly and a bag attached to it well that was me. So for many years after that eating was my enemy food made me sick so i was quite thin most of my child hood.
When I got to my teen years how ever every thing changed. I started gaining weight and was very sexy girl for a few years. my problem came when the weight did not stop coming and here I am now.
Sometimes I think my mother should be slapping herself for doing that she would of never wondered her sack of skin and bones would end up weighing almost 300 #.
Well to make a long story short I was born with some intestinal malformaties that were fixed before i had turned one you ever see a baby with a tube sticking out of hie/her belly and a bag attached to it well that was me. So for many years after that eating was my enemy food made me sick so i was quite thin most of my child hood.
When I got to my teen years how ever every thing changed. I started gaining weight and was very sexy girl for a few years. my problem came when the weight did not stop coming and here I am now.
WENT TO ORIENTATION
May 31, 2007
SO IT WAS THIS PAST TUESDAY I FOUND IT WAS VERY INFORMATIVE. I DECIDED ON DOING A SPECIAL RNY THAT THE CAPELLA GROUP IN RAMSEY HAS DEVELOPED CALLED THE BANDED RNY IT LOOKS LIKE MY BEST OPTION IT CANT BE DONE LAPROSCOPIC BUT THE OPEN CUT IS ONLY ABOUT 2 INCHES LONG AT THE TOP OF YOURE STOMACH. MY FIRST CONSULTATION IS NEXT FRIDAY JUNE 8. IM HOPING MY INSURANCE WONT GIVE HELL BECAUSE IM ALREADY A TYPE II DIABETIC AND HAVE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE AND A FEW OTHER CONDITIONS IM DEALING WITH. ONE THING I DID EXPERIENCE AT THE ORIENTATION WAS A SENSATION OF GUILT I FELT SO BAD IM ALWAYS COMPLAINING ABOUT MY WEIGHT HOW I HATE TO LOOK AT MYSELF BECAUSE IM SO BIG I WEIGH 280 POUNDS WENT DOWN 12 THIS MONTH DUE TO THE BLOOD PRESSURE MEDS IM ON BUT THERE WERE PEOPLE THERE THAT COULD BARELY WALK THERE WAS THIS ONE LADY THAT NEEDED A WHEELED WALKER TO GET AROUND BECAUSE SHE WAS TO BIG TO MOVE WITHOUT SUPPORT. I FELT SO FOOLISH I WALK IN THERE ALL DOLLED UP AND WEARING HEALS AND THERES PEOPLE THERE THAT COULD BARELY WEAR SANDALS CAUSE THEIR FEET WERE TO LARGE FOR SHOES IT WAS A VERY HUMBELING EXPERIENCE.
FIRST APPOINTMENT
May 29, 2007
TODAY I GO TO ORIENTATION HOPE TO GET ALOT OF USEFULL INFO FROM THEM. AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT.
