anxiously waiting

Sep 26, 2010

I am a little over 2 weeks now and am starting to understand my new lifestyle.  I ventured into a new restaurant this weekend, Ruby Tuesday's.  I looked at the menu and there really wasn't anything there that caught my eye.  So I ordered 10 pieces of sauteed shrimp and then ate from the salad bar that my cousin got with her meal for $2.99 (instead of paying $7.99).  My little salad wasn't even worth $2.99 but I left there as full if not fuller than my cousin.  Of course I had 5 pieces of shrimp.    Then the next day, we went to IHOP, I got the garden veggie omelet with ham and pumpkin pancakes instead of the buttermilk.  I ate 1/4 of the omelet and one pancake.  I can eat off this for 3 days.  I had this brillant idea after I ate a 1/4 of the omelet yesterday.....let me have dessert (not a good thing on a totally full pouch)  I had 1/2 of a pancake with fat free cool whip.  OMG... within a matter of minutes, I had this horrible pain it seemed like it was in the middle of my back.  Got up to let my dogs in, then felt it coming up.   I can say I can learn from my experiences.
I weighed myself this morning on my scale and it's below 200.  I am not going to say I am below 200 yet because I know my scale changes. 
I don't go back to the Dr.s until 10/19... so far away!

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Pre Surgery process

Sep 19, 2010

In January I had my appointment with Dr. Magliola in weight management.  I was a little nervous meeting with him.  During my appointment with him, I felt more and more relaxed. We talked about having the surgery for a hot second, but really focused on changing my way of life.  The next appointment I had with him, he gave me a food journal and told me to write everything down I ate along with exercise.  I was and still am horrible about writing things down.  So I did the best I could by my next appointment.  I did not lose anything at that visit.  He told me I must not have done what he asked me to do, if I did I would have lost weight.  After that appointment I felt horrible, like a little ant.  So I made every possible effort to lose as much weight as I could by my next appointment.  It was during that time I became addicted to walking.  I would walk on my lunch for 30 minutes, then walk home from work everyday for 15 minutes, I would even walk at night.  I started setting walking goals for myself and acheived them all.  I looked at food instead of something that tastes good, I saw calories and fat.  I was so proud of the change I made.  I had my 4th visit with Dr. Magliola, I did it.. I lost almost 10 lbs.  I was so happy.  He told me to continue doing what I was doing and to see him next month.  I continued doing everything and lost around 10 lbs when I saw him.  Then we discussed if I was going to pusue the surgery or continue to lose the weight on my own.  I told the Dr. that I struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember.  I said one of my goals was to start a family and I am up against a biological clock (33 years old).  I said I feel this is the right move for me, I can not take all the meds anymore.  He agreed with me, he said if this is something you were to do, there is no time like now to have the surgery. 
During the 6 months process, I received clearance from heart and vascular (since I had WPW), pulmonary (was diagnosed with moderate sleep apnea), nutrition, psych and weight mgmt.  In June all the paperwork was sent over to my insurance requesting approval for RNY surgery.
I called my insurance co to check the status of the request and she said that it was pending approval for lap band surgery.  I told them no, it's suppose to be RNY.   I called the nurse and she called them right away and had it corrected.  The nurse called me within an hour and said I have great news for you.... you are approved and she had the auth number and everything.  I was so happy!  Finally!
So we went back and forth with surgery dates and my date was 7/22. 
More to come.
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A little about me

Sep 07, 2010

I guess there is no better time then now to start my blog. 
In December 2010, I made my mind up to have bariatric surgery, after gagging every day on my meds (7 meds and 4 vitamins). 
Here is a little more about me and my health.
In my late teens ( a little over 15 years ago) I was diagnosed with PCOS and years of fertility pills and depression I just gained weight.  I want to say in 2003, I decided to pursue bariatric surgery at 270lbs with a BMI around 40 and the only medical conditions I hade were mild sleep apnea and PCOS.  Well the insurance company denied me (thank goodness).  I did not appeal the decision.  I figured there was a reason why it was not meant to be.  So over the years I developed many co-morbidities after losing weight.  I was diagnosed with diabetes, high blood pressure, acid reflux, high chloesterol, sleep apnea, Wolff-Parkinson-White Syndrome.  I still struggled with PCOS, mild case of depression, back pain and joint pain.  My battle with depression was that I felt like I was a failure to my husband by not being able to have children because of my weight.  He assured me I was not a failure because he did not marry me to have children, he married me because of me. 
After all the years of just accepting things the way they fell, I said I can't do this anymore.  Like I stated earlier, I would gag daily taking my meds.  I would get so down in the dumps every Sunday when  I would fill my pill case up.  I felt like I was an elderly person trapped in a 34 year old body. 
We are now in December of 2009.  I was at work and decided to look up the weight management department at MetroHealth Medical Center.  I called and scheduled my appointment.  I was so excited because I finally had enough! 
Michael Jackson's song Man in the Mirror was going through my head all day and is now


Man in the Mirror
I'm gonna make a change,
for once im my life
It's gonna feel real good,
gonna make a diference
Gonna make it right...

As I, turn up the collar on
my favorite winter coat
This wind is blowing my mind
I see the kids in the streets,
with not enought to eat
Who am I to be blind?
Pretending not to see their needs

A summer disregard,a broken bottle top
And a one man soul
They follow each other on the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)
(Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah)

I've been a victim of a selfish kind of love
It's time that I realize
That there are some with no home, not a nickel to loan
Could it be really me, pretending that they're not alone?

A willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart
And a washed-out dream
(Washed-out dream)
They follow the pattern of the wind ya' see
'Cause they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me
(Starting with me!)

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Ooh!)
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Change his ways - ooh!)
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make that..
(Take a look at yourself and then make that..)
CHANGE!

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
(Man in the mirror - Oh yeah!)
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Better change!)
No message could have been any clearer
(If you wanna make the world a better place)

(Take a look at yourself and then make the change)
(You gotta get it right, while you got the time)
('Cause when you close your heart)
You can't close your... your mind!
(Then you close your... mind!)
That man, that man, that man, that man
With the man in the mirror
(Man in the mirror, oh yeah!)
That man, that man, that man,
I'm asking him to change his ways
(Better change!)
You know... that man
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself and then make the change
(Take a look at yourself and then make the change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah
(Ooooh...)
Oh no, no no...

I'm gonna make a change
It's gonna feel real good!
Come on!
(Change...)
Just lift yourself
You know
You've got to stop it,
Yourself!
(Yeah! - Make that change!)
I've got to make that change, today!
Hoo!
(Man in the mirror)
You got to
You got to not let yourself...
brother
Hoo!
(Yeah! - Make that change!)
You know - I've got to get
that man, that man...
(Man in the mirror)
You've got to
You've got to move! Come on!
Come on!
You got to...
Stand up! Stand up! Stand up!
(Yeah! - Make that change)
Stand up and lift yourself, now!
(Man in the mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah! - Make that change!)
Gonna make that change...
come on!
You know it!
You know it!
You know it!
You know it...
(Change...)
Make that change.


So my life changed on 1/12/10 when I met my weight management Dr..  He helped me change my thinking and my ways.  Under his care I lost between 20-25 lbs depending on the scale.  My beginning weight was 259 (in the system it was marked down as 254).  While I was seeing him, I had to get clearance from nutrition, psych, pulmonary, heart and vasc, and of course Dr. Mag.  Over 6 months time, I started walking (anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour), cut out all regular pop, white things, stopped eating out, and found my new favorite cereal... kashi berry crumble and dannon light and fit vanilla yogurt.  Then the time came for me to make the decision if I still wanted to have the surgery.  My decision was yes.  So the paperwork was submitted to the insurance company.  Within a week, the insurance approved my request.  Surgery was then scheduled for 7/22/10.  That is the day my life changed. 
Stay tuned for more 
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