2 years have flown by

Jun 23, 2010

Wow...all I can say is "What a ride this has been".  Two years ago on June 24,2008  Dr. Jack Ditslear helped me begin again.
My outside and inside finally match!   2 years and 170lbs gone.   I am finally who I always wanted to be.  

Was it easy...hell no!
Is it easy now....still NO!!!  I am tempted every day. I can now eat "anything"....but the great thing is...I DON'T WANT TO :)

I thought for many years about RNY. I just don't think I had mentally made the commitment to myself.  Yes...to myself.
I was raised to care for others, so everyone else was more important than me, right?  Finally I realized all the damage I was doing to myself and made the decision because it was FOR ME.

The surgery was the easy part, changing my mental habits and facing reality was and is still tough.  I am an ADDICT...a FOOD ADDICT....I used food for all the wrong things....

I mourned the loss of my "Comforter", my "Crutch", my "Excuses".... it was rough...at least drug addicts, alcoholics etc don't ever have to pick it up again...we have to eat...we have to touch it taste it, smell it...and partake....what a wicked necessity food had become.

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