jbeauty65
ONE YEAR TODAY!!!
Jun 20, 2012
It's been a while...
May 23, 2012
I had hit a dead end in the weight loss for a few months and I have really been focusing on food choices and hunger queues to start back on the right track - those old nasty habits sneak in so innocently! Since I have been tracking and being more mindful, I have lost four pounds so I am feeling a bit more positive about that. SURGERY IS ONLY A TOOL!!! I refuse to be a "she gained all her weight back" story.
Sadly some of my relationships have suffered over the last year. I guess I have become more confident and some find that intimidating. Its ok though because the relationships that have survived have become better, stronger. I do sometimes hate the honest truth that some people treat me better now that I have lost weight but I guess that just goes with society and the b.s. ideas that advertisements and media put into our heads.
The only thing I know is this - I have no regrets. I am the happiest I have been in my whole adult life. Thank you to those that have supported me through the (almost) past year. It's not an easy road and it is still a stuggle, but I am so thankful for it. I have had two great friends have the surgery since I did and they have had great success as well - I love cheering them on and being a support to eachother.
Happy Summer all! I know this year my bathing suit will NOT consist of any skirt, shorts or dress variety!!!
Looking back...
Aug 26, 2011
I called my sister the other day - who might I add has been a huge support of this journey and I feel like we have become closer because of it - anyway, she had a picture of us from a charity walk we did back in May 2010 and she reminded me of the picture and asked for a new one since I look different now. I honestly had forgotten about the picture and decided to look for it - and I found it. It was at my all time high of 254 - all I could wonder was who the hell is that girl and who swallowed her face?
My point is - I can finally see results and I am just so happy with my decision to go through with the surgery. I am continuing to lose weight and gain confidence - as a matter of fact, I went out the other night and was hit on by several men... one of them is a wonderful guy and we had an amazing date the other night. Going to see him again this weekend too. I finally feel like I am complete with myself. I cannot even express how at peace I feel and how excited I am at the same time. Now when I say life is good, I mean it.
May 2010
August 2011
Four Pounds from Onederland...
Aug 02, 2011
Anyway - I am happy to say I have purged three garbage bags of clothes... I am shocked at how fast it comes off sometimes. Seems I go in phases... I weigh about the same for a few days and BOOM, down three pounds... weigh the same and BOOM, down a few more pounds. This has made for an interesting wardrobe. I am not used to looking like clothes are falling off me. Today I threw on a top that used to be too tight on me thinking that there would be no way it would be too big yet and well, I have been battling all day just to keep my boobs in it. I am not complaining though - don't get me wrong - just saying its been a challenge. Don't want to buy too many things, but need stuff to wear. I will have to go buy jeans this week - seriously, these 18's fall off as I walk. YAY tho!
Suck it Lane Bryant!
Jul 14, 2011
Had my first "arguement" with my sleeve...
Jul 13, 2011
I am in my fourth week post-op and have been absolutely loving pureed foods. I know that might sound crazy, but the flavor and variety it gives is so great! I did, however, learn yesterday that I need to plan things a little better to allow enough time to eat. I was working and realized that time had passed and needed to get to a meeting... well, ate too fast and man was I regretting it. Let's just say today will be a better planned out day and that will never happen again. HAHAHA.
Other than that, I LOVE my sleeve. I am so happy with the results so far and there hasn't been any major side effects. This week I have really gotten my energy back and have been walking at night and hopefully will be getting my butt back to the gym and PILATES :) next week.
Life is good and the sleeve was my saving grace.
Day 6 Post Op
Jun 25, 2011
1. You have to introduce new foods/drinks SLOWLY. Holy runnin to the bathroom and thinking I was gonna die.
2. Once I figured out how to introduce foods in a slower, with less tragic results, my energy started to pick up a bit. My body needs the food. Having gone through a recovery program for an eating disorder where I would restrict and binge, I guess I never realized how badly our body needs the food as energy.
Overall thing have gone well, I can't complain, and I have lost 6 pounds since surgery. I stopped taking tylenol and painkillers this afternoon and so far have felt fine. A few aches here and there but nothing I cannot handle.
Anywhoo - I am going to keep rollin and learnin as I go along... They weren't kidding when they said this was a journey!
Home Again!
Jun 22, 2011
Worst part is over right? I am rockin my sleeve and ready to start feeling even better!
Surgery Tomorrow...
Jun 19, 2011
MILD Laxative???
Jun 18, 2011
Mental note: If I gamble, I will lose...