ididabadbadthing

Apr 12, 2011

Hi,

They say it's better the second time around.  Let's try it and see....  I am going to come here daily and post about what will help me get through another day, successfully.  It may be about food, exercise, mood, humor, success and failures, if failure is the word of the day.  Get out of it what you want, it's for me and if I help others along the way the more the better  Join me if you want, I am sure I am not alone.  I will tell you I am several years out, my "tool" did not fail, I failed.  Here goes..

I just got back from the gym for the first time in a L O N G T I M E!  I sat in the car for several mins, it was so hard to walk in there. The last time I was there I was in kick ass shape and looked that way too.  As I walked in with my head hanging down, I got the courage to glance at my reflection. Damn that big tee shirt didn't hide the fat like I thought.  WTH, I looked skinny at home    I want to do a couple of weeks of cardio first before getting into weights.  I know that is what works for me. I put the earplugs in and walked towards the gym, sweat towel (not sure if its big enough) and water bottle in hand.

I went over to the 

new it my legs and arms were moving, YEAH BABY, and I was huffing and puffing and sweating like a pork sandwich (I know but fish didn't sound right).  It was only 3 mins into the workout   

With the help of good tunes and a few "pauses" I got through 30 mins.  Yeah me....the next part shocked me but makes sense.  Don't read if you have a weak tummy.

Have you ever seen them on the Biggest Loser where they throw up after the first big workout?  I started hacking and hacking and thought my lung was coming up.  Thank god no one was in the bathrooms.  I started coughing up shit like crazy. Then I realized, it was my body trying to breath, trying to get healthy, trying to remind me there is a price to pay for crapping on it....

I made it home, barely.  Walked in the door and my husband looked at me like I got hit by a bus, I waved him off  and hit the shower where I proceeded to cough up crap for 15 mins.  Once I was done I felt able to breath, and felt good.....  Geez and this was day one.  

Stay tuned 

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