MAY 16,2006
I HAD MY CONSULT WITH MY SURGEON ON JAN 3,2006.
I FELT THAT THE CHANCES THAT THE GASTRIC BYPASS
WOULD NOT HAPPEN. A COUPLE MONTHS OUT I DECIDED
TO TRY AGAIN, AND I HAVE BEGONE THE PROCESS. I HAVE HAD MY
APPOINTMENT WITH THE DIETICIAN AND THE PSYCOSOCIAL. THE DIET-
ICIAN APPROVED ME FOR THE SURGERY AND THE OTHER SAID I HAD TO COMPLY WITH A FEW THINGS BEFORE SHE WOULD RECOMMEND ME FOR SURGERY. I HAVE TO DO THREE MORE MONTHS OF COUNSELING, BECAUSE I HAVE HAD A FEW EMOTIONAL TRIGGERS IN THE PAST SEVERAL MONTHS. I WILL DO WHAT I NEED TO DO TO BE SUCCESSFUL FOR THE SURGERY. I WANT MY LIFE BACK, IT IS REALLY STRANGE, I HAVE BEEN OVERWEIGHT SINCE THE BIRTH OF MY FIRST CHILD AND HAVE GAINED WEIGHT EVER SINCE THEN. I REALLY NEVER KNEW I WAS AS LARGE AS I WAS UNTIL MY LATE 20'S TO EARLY 30'S. AFTER MY DIVORCE WHEN I WAS THIRTY TWO. I STARTED TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF AND DECIDED I WANTED TO LOSE THE WEIGHT. AT THIS TIME I WEIGHED 320. AFTER ABOUT 4 YEARS I LOST 120LBS. AFTER THIS TIME I GOT SICK AND ENDED UP HAVING GALLBLADDER SURGERY. AND SLOWLY THE WEIGHT WENT UP FROM THERE. I HAVE TRIED TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND HAVE BEEN UNSUCCESSFUL SINCE. I HAVE TRIED NUMEROUS DIETS, GOING TO THE GYM, BUT I THINK I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING AS FAR A EXERCISE IS CONCERNED. BUT I NEVER GAVE UP. YES I AM DISCOURAGED, BUT NOW SOMEDAYS I CAN HARDLY WALK BECAUSE MY KNEES ARE SO BAD. I HAVEN'T HAD A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP SINCE I DON'T KNOW WHEN. I HAVE LOST MOST OF MY SELF CONFIDENCE AND JUST NEVER FEEL GOOD. I JUST WANT TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. I AM NOT SURE, I JUST FEEL SO CONFUSED SOMDAYS I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND. JUST TO LET ANYONE KNOW, I WON'T GIVE UP, AND NEVER WILL. I BELIEVE I STILL HAVE SEVERAL MONTHS UNTIL MY SURGERY, BUT I BELIEVE GOD IS RUNNING THE SHOW AND WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT IT WILL HAPPEN. IN THE MEAN TIME I WILL DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO SUCCEED IN THIS DECISION TO HAVE THE SURGERY. I WILL REMAIN POSITIVE, AND NOT GIVE UP.
WELL GOOD NIGHT FOR NOW. I WILL WRITE LATER, HELEN
