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I sure have been through a lot this past month including a 2 week plateau. Plateau's are just mean! I know my body lost inches during that time but the scale not moving was hard on my brain. I finally made the desicion to not weigh myself until my official 30 days out and I was down a total of 39.4 pounds! It was an amazing moment and finally my plateau was over. I was so happy and thankful. 

This surgery has changed my view on life. Now that I'm healthier I find the motivation to treat myself better because I deserve it. I had always thought the surgery was more of a wish than reality. I thought it wasn't meant for someone like me. Then one day I was watching an episode of Will & Grace. Jack didn't want to come out to his mother that he was gay and Will reminded him of what Jack said to him when he had the same problem. Jack said "Will, aren't you tired? Tired of lying to everyone. Tired of being someone you're not?" and it made me think. I AM TIRED! I'm tired of wishing I wasn't so fat and unhealthy. I'm tired of wondering if the seats at a hockey game will be big enough for me. I'm tired of my stomach touching the steering wheel in my car. So I made the decision to look into the surgery and see if I qualify. I then found out that I was fatter than I thought (BMI wise) and that this surgery was made for me. 

I haven't looked back since! This is the best decision of my life!

I love it when life tries to send me curve balls. I found out that my gym membership that I have through my work was accidentally cancelled :( I was on a roll and would go everyday. The front desk guy at the gym knows my story and he really didn't want to tell me it was cancelled but I just told him I would see him again once it's fixed. Ironically my doc just gave me some information about how I can burn calories without having to go to the gym so I today I am doing some housework and then I will walk 2 miles outside. The weather is great today in California. It's about 75 and overcast.

I can't let this get me down. I must continue to exercise!

This is my first post ever! First of all I just want to say that I am so thankful for this website. I do have support groups in my area but this site offers 24 hour support. It's positive and honest support which is so nice to find in such a cruel world sometimes.

The main reason I haven't posted anything is because I don't know what to say. I didn't have any complications which can sometimes be a complication in itself. It makes me wonder if I was really given the bypass or not. But then about a week ago I ate cottage cheese too fast and realized my stomach really is small. Well I won't do that again. Also, I already had my first stall at one week which was depressing. It still lasted 2 weeks till my appt with my NP but she was so happy at the weight I already lost and thinks I will do so great in the future. I was embarrassed to go to that appointment with the stall I had but my NP really motivated me and I am so thankful for her. She is the best!

Now I am currently dealing with some lower back pain. It feels like a lifting injury although I don't know when the onset began. I probably just overworked myself and then when I went back to work I wasn't used to sitting in my chair and it made my back pain worse. Even though the chair are ergonomically correct (I have been slouching on the couch lately). I am not sure how to heal my back without NSAIDs. I will buy some Tylenol tomorrow and it seems using a cold compress helps. We'll see how this helps in the long run.

Lastly, I just want to say thank you to everyone on this site and in my life. My family is supportive but doesn't fully understand what I am going through food-wise. But I don't blame them, they are trying. The people at work are so amazing and positive about my procedure. And my OH friends. Everyone is so incredibly nice and helpful. Thank you for all the honest feedback in your posts/responses. I like the fact that we are from all different walks of life but at the same time we are connected by this surgery, regardless of the type.