Up another pound and feeling more worthless

May 07, 2014

I had to take some Atavan yesterday. I felt like I was going to have a nervous breakdown. I took a pic with my cell of my enormous fat disgusting 11lb gut that has developed over the past month and posted it on instagram.  I cried and cried and cried and this was not good seeing I had to attend my daughter's college graduation. I had to pull it together so I took the 2 atavan to calm down to get through the ceremonies. Not only am I a fat failure, all I can do it think about my own problems and cry and be miserable when I should be happy because it was my daughter's day. What added to it was all my nice pants I wanted to wear to the graduation were uncomforatably tight.

I blog here because I don't want to cause turmoil on the boards and I want everyone who responds to my blog to know that I appreciate eveyrthing you say and the fact that you care enough to say anything at all here.

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