Been so long

Mar 03, 2010

I was just reviewing my file and I see I haven't updated this in so long
A lot has happened.
Looking back over this last 14.5 months, it has been an amazing ride
I look in the mirror and truly am surprised at what I see. For those who have struggled with weight understand but those who are a little over weight say I only did this to look the way I do. I will be honest with who ever reads this; I didn't expect this result
I was tired of being the 'fat' girl but to look at what has become of that person I didn't think it possible
I thought I would loose the stomach and the round face but to actually have a shape, to be called 'skinny mini' [which still bothers me at those who call me that never used to say "Hi fatso", so why do they think the new pet name is ok]. Some say 'Don't you think you've lost enough'. They don't know that I haven't lost in months but that's ok
I am about to go into surgery to have a TT and feel this is the right time for me. My skin is bothering me more than being fat did. Dressing in the dark and not feeling comfortable with my husband. I know I will hear loads of remarks from those who don't understand what I've been through but I'm ok with it now. It's their problem not mine. I'm finishing what I started. This is for me and my health. If I don't remove this skin now it will only get worse. The issues are personal and medical and I won't say I'm sorry.
This journey has been very good for me. I have learned to be the person I've always wanted to be. I go out and pay this forward to those who will listen. For those how want to know, for those who have been misinformed and to help those who don't know where to turn.
I have met some brilliant people and they are so caring
If we are smart we will educate those who have become obese so that the next generation will be healthier and won't have our fight. There are some things that I will never fix, damage has been done, but I know I'll be here a lot longer than I would have been without this surgery
I hope may story helps just one person. That would make me extremely happy
Take care of yourself as it is really up to you to win this fight with obesity

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