The Night Before...

Oct 26, 2015

The night before and I can't believe it's here...

7 plus months since this all started and it's here. All the early doubts all those months ago, the creeping insecurities about whether I could do this, and now it's happening. Yes, I'm nervous and have had those fears that maybe this won't work for me or my liver won't have shrunk enough or this, that, or the other, but I just gotta block it all out cause the moment is here now...

Put one day of work in this week, which if I'm being honest felt like 5 days in one. Felt all anxious and hyped up, but trying so hard to focus on the tasks at hand. My mind was needing to be getting work done but the fact I'm going in for VSG surgery in less than 24hrs. kept creeping in. I still feel that sense of "am I forgetting something?" But I also feel really ready for this challenge and what this chapter will bring and really ready to succeed at losing weight and maintaining a healthy weight, which has been a real struggle for practically my whole life. So, with the last few hours I'll get all packed up for my hospital stay for the start of my trek to "the loser's bench" as so many here refer to it as. Being a loser never sounded so good!! Did I mention it's almost, finally here?!?!

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