Brenda Holland

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I'm still losing at a consistant pace, about 1 pound a day (some days less).  I'm happy that I'm beginning to feel like there might be hope -- but, I'm tired of the left side pain and the constant gas pains and I'm tired of looking like "a hot mess" in my now "baggy ass clothes"!
I know this is all temporary (saggy skin, baggy clothes, and mild depression), but I'm so eager to get the old me back -- it's hard not to be impatient...:)

I'm stuck at walking 2 miles in 34 mins -- can't seem to speed up the pace without left side pain returning (painful body core).
I was able to increase on the stationary bike 10 miles on level 8  -- buring 750 cal within 1 hour 2 mins. 

My weight loss is now 44 pounds in 3 1/2 weeks. 

3 weeks post op --I weighed in at 261 this morning (thought I was stuck at 265 for ever) but I was really happen to see that number change today.

2nd week back at the gym and biked 8 miles in 45 mins (not my best time) but I have another goal to work on now.
walked 2 miles in 36 minutes (again not my best time).  But I'm happy just to be able to be healthy enough to walk that far (for now).  I have big goals for the future  (marathons, bike races....etc.)  ha!

My clothes are beginning to really bag out, especially in the buttox :)....  I don't mind so much -- but I feel that soon I'll have to purchase a belt.  I refuse to purchase any clothes until I'm near my goal (I don't care how I look until then)...then when I get close to my goal weight I might purchase some jeans.

I'm beginning another semester in college-- I have 9 classes to go ...can not wait until it's over.

Not much to report...I'm having a hard time finding time to eat meals when I'm concentrating on driking enough water and getting in all my proteins.  the 30/30 rule sucks and it gets in my way...but it's the rules :).  I'm still taking all my meds and vitamins "every day".  Like I said, meal time is a hassle and so I'm not eating enough --but then I'm not really hungry any more.  Just really busy "sipping and sipping more"...

day 6 ran out of pain killers and didn't want to contend with crushed tylenol so I wrapped my midsection with a towel and tape to create pressure for my abs.  I find that I can function and walk farther than with out it, it also easier to sleep now.  I think most of my pain is due to the hernia operation and not so much the rny. 

today I'm walking two miles -- I was able to walk that far pre-op but the farthest I've walked so far after the surgery is 1.4 miles. 
I'm sure my body will tell me when it's had enough :).

Today I was switched from the all "clear liquid diet and protein shakes" to the "full liquid diet and protein shakes".  My first "meal" after my protein shake was two ounces of cream of wheat.  I tolerated it fairly well with no dumping and I feel tons better ::: more energy.  

Well...thats it for now...I'm down to 269 this morning.  

Arrgh...."Did anyone get the license number of the truck that hit me?"  .....Shit, that hurt!  LOL  

I'm 6 days post op and still in a bit of pain.  I think the most pain I ever experienced through this whole process is the gas rollin around in my belly and when someone makes me laugh. 

I am still a bit weak but I walk around quit a bit.  I wake up each morning feeling better than I did the day before, but by 2:00pm I'm in pain and weak again and in need of a nap.  

Day 6 and I'm finally able to bend over -- I haven't been able to bend, my diaphram is so sore.  The doctors ended up reparing a hernia while doing the gastric bypass (I guess that was a 'bonus'). 

I know that I'm not supposed to be hungry yet (but I am)....I guess it's mental hunger-- needless to say it's been a battle.  I'm still on liquid diet with protein, won't be able to graduate to mushies untill sometime after the 14th. 

I'm out of pain medication, so I think today I'll just take tylenol extra strength.  Hopefully that will take the edge off the gas pain..

I'm not as scared as this smiliey portrays --but, pretty close to saying that I have cold feet. Ha!
I've lost more weight since the last time I bloged.  I now weight 273 -- two more pounds and I've met my doctors pre-op goals .  I think the "clear liquid diet" is pretty horrible -- but not as bad as having to suffer through optifast for 3 weeks.  Eesh that stuff was gross -- I'm glad I'm over it.  

I've cleaned the entire house, shampooed every rug , dusted every thing, did all the laundry, and even cleaned the back yard -- I've actually run out of things to clean and to organize and I still have the need to clean...lol "nesting" is a very wierd behavior...lol

I think the worse part of all the dieting and fasting is the headaches and the lack of energy.  I've been pushing through that lack of energy by taking short breaks.  I tossed and turned last night--had to pee like a million times throughout the night. 

I just think I'm really nervous about tomorrow.  I know the operation will be successful --without any complications.  I'm just not thrilled to be put under.   I don't like the experience of losing time and waking up out of it has always been very nausiating for me.  

Anyway...wish me luck.

  Hi!  I have survived 21 days of complete missery on this "optifast" diet.  I have only 1 day left on this diet -- then I switch to a clear liquid diet.  I don't mind -- it's only two days and I don't have to drink liquid meals. Yes, I would rather drink sodium free broth and tea and water for 48 hours.  I have managed to lose 20 pounds, however, I think I lost more in inches than in weight.  None of my pants fit me properly -- which is okay (as long as I have a belt to hold up my pants and a long tunic to hide my baggy butt...

I'm still really tired, and I still have no energy, but the headaches are completely gone--

  I can't take it.... I hate this liquid diet!  I have no energy, I'm too tired to care about anything! 
All I can say is that ::: "I can't wait for this part of the mess is over!" 

I'm off to take a nap for the next 6 days....

The urinary test revealed blood in my urine, however, it didn't seem to worry the surgeon -- so the operation is still scheduled for Oct 3rd.  Now, we just have to figure out why there's blood in the urine.  Followup test revealed that I don't have an infection. 

It's all good.  Just waiting to make apointment for cat scan on kidneys to find out what might be going on....

Day 12 on optifast diet  :::::     this diet sucks
Lost close to 20 pounds

Okay, so I was so pysched this week because my opertation date is soon approaching and it seems like smooth sailing...unil ..The last urin test.  The first urin test came back possitive for monocysts and a small amount of blood.  This last urin test revealed large amounts of blood and no monocysts.  So, now I have to go get a cat scan to find out if I have kidney stones.  I'm hoping that this won't interfere with the scheduled operation date.  But if it does-- I'll have to be patient.  Gotta deal with this first I suppose..."long face"...

I'm in day 8 of the optifast diet -- (clinically proven to help you lose weight).  Yeah...it works -- through STARVATION!
I think my husband is tired of me asking if he is hungry.   "Uhm...."are you hungry?....I'm hungry!  Are you sure you aren't hungry?"  I have a feeling that I'm enjoying food through my dogs too!  I've been over feeding everyone in the house!  I'm certain the dogs don't mind -- but I better stop, cause Augie is looking kinda round now....Ha!
Today all the banana's that I would have eatten this week began to turn brown and so instead of tossing them in the compost bin, I decided to make Vince banana bread.  I had everything under control...that is until I discovered that my oven is not working!  Why is my oven not working?  I haven't a clue...perhaps the universe is saving Vince from future obesity...
So, now I have to either find a way to bake this bread or toss it....it seems a shame to toss it'    Whatever...

I really am hungry....I really "hate" this diet...even the dogs don't beg for a taste of this stuff.  

13 days to go