Age 52 now.....

Apr 26, 2019

I dont check in as often but I still log in and view photos, messages, and forums. I am 52 now. I still have that lousy galbladder that they tried to remove last June however it appears that I have a hole in my throat but no one knows why nor how to fix it and they were never able to get a tube down my throat in the OR to breathe for me during the surgery. When I woke up in recovery I had the worst sore throat that I ever had in my life. I still need the surgery and have had one additional galbladder attack but I am too scared to do the surgery unless it gets too bad. I was never scared one bit for the WLS nor my 11 pound baby c-section but this galbladder thing has me terrified because of the hole in my throat. I just pray that I never need an emergency surgery from some kind of trauma. Even with the weight loss I still deal with bad back pain. I was getting spinal injections for a long time and that helped a lot however I later learned that those shots are high doses of steriods, which not with all people but with many, raises your sugar levels so even though I am not diabetic I kept getting diabetic ulcers on my feet and have had to have four surgeries on my toes. It is believed that at the last toe surgery the hole in my throat was either already there or was a result of the breathing tube from that surgery. I remember them waking me up in the middle of that surgery telling me that my oxygen levels were dropping too low so they were going to keep me awake during the rest of the surgery though I would not feel anything. My one and only child is married and though I keep bugging her no grandbabies yet. Infertility still sucks. I always wanted three kids. I am still very thankful that I was blessed with one. I am still angry that we did all of the adoption/foster classes and other requirements but 11 years later we still have not received one phone call even though we were approved. I think the system sucks. Too many kids out there that needs good homes but never get placed. We are too old now(me 52 him 72) but we would of been great parents to an adopted child. I added a few photos today. Defintely not at a goal weight but doing ok and I dont look to bad for a 52 year old lady. I am happy and have no surgery regrets.

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