A week and a day

May 29, 2010

8 days post op...and its happening....what I was worried about. Im sad. Very sad, im in food mourning. Im not hungry,- Im trying for ce this damn protien down as I type. I miss food. I have been at my moms since I was discharged, because my husband was kinda of scared to take care of me. (i really didnt want him too) I have 3 sisters who still live at my moms, to its alot of tlc at moms house. So we (my family) decided I go there. Anyhoo, my mom cooks. She is a bonified cook! lol. We waking up to the smell of bacon, eggs, and pancakes for the first few days didnt both me at all. Or the smell of fried chicken for dinner on day 4, or speghetti and meatballs on day 5. Today, no smell of food, Saturday a fast food day, I felt sad. I felt like its Saturday, no cookout hotdogs, hambergers, nor fried fish, non of that. This damn shake. Dont get me wrong - Im really not hungry. Im sad I m not at the movies seeing Sex in the City, with a bag of buttered popcorn, or cheese nachos, with a diet coke...im sad.

Im sad because I still feel week. I dont feel strong enough to reall exercise? I went to the Dr. Thursday for a follow up and 1 - he wasnted up up this damn protien. I couldnt even get 20 grams in, he said he was going to tell me to get up to 100 this week. Im like man for real, i just got off the damn table I felt like i wanted to faint walking into your office...wtf??? So he said Im weak because not enough protien. Id have more energy, I can do alot and my mom is not letting me do stuff. The reality is, I feel like shit still. Im still weak, my insdes are still sore, and i still got this got damn gas. Sorry yall just venting, but I did manage to go out today, for about an hour withmy sisters, and they had to bring me home, I was sweaty and weak. My doc said I should be out side walking a half hour no stopping, I mean guys is it me. Im going to go home Monday, maybe I do need to get out of my moms house....how did you guys feel after????I hate people keep calling me and saying yeah I had a friend and she said after 3 days she was out shopping and was at the club blah blah blah....i turned my phone off.

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