stupid me...

May 14, 2009

so im on my way out of work and i had to make an errand for the morning, and i get a rumble in my tummy. and i had a protein drink like 2 hours or so before;  i debate what should i eat since my next stop is the gym.

after much contemplation (and know i feel like the worlds biggest idiot) i decided a cheeseburger w/ no bun would be great! i thought about not eating till i got home from working out, but my old self was like 'why not bk? a burger with bun would be ok! as long as you dont get anything else youll so be fine!"

so i listened to myself. .

and the end result?

bad bad bad decison! 

i usually wait until i get home from the gym munch on some dinner and im fine.

im not going to let one bad decison get me down, crap it was my first time even having fast food since surgery, and ive been tempted many times but thought about the consequences.

so yeah i went to the gym , vommed , tried walking on the treadmill before doing the cross trainer, and after 10 minutes decided it was best to come on home and call it a day..

i feel even guilter because i havent worked out since monday at the gym and took a 2 mile walk yesterday around the city. thats only 2 days this week ive done cardio!! 

somebody told me today im to hard on myself before this situation even happened. i really am. if i have a goal and know i want to accomplish it, i stick to it. and i feel by eating that cheese burger and getting sick i just fell down and am weak.

you know what? im going to get up on my feet and face myself, deal with it and move on.

wls is a roller coaster ride. even if you are so fastpaced w/ your life your forced to take it down a notch, bite by bite , step by step.

now im getting sleepy. yay for dumping (i think.)

xoxo

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