I have my date!

May 12, 2011

June 30th! It's really really real and it's slowly starting to hit me. I haven't allowed myself to really be excited about it for fear of being let down. In fact, last week as I waited for the insurance to call me with approval I went into a downward spiral because I was sure they were going to deny me. When they called on Monday to let me know I was approved I bawled for over an hour to Virginia with relief.  It still wasn't real though. Then they called me this morning to schedule my surgery and give me some directions and I felt rather numb about it. I don't understand my emotions about this at all but I guess that's ok.  Now my head is wondering what size I'll be a year from now. How will my life change.  Mindy said "Just think. A whole new you a year from now". At the time I thought that sounded great but now I don't like the way it sounds at all because I genuinely like who I am now. I just want to be healthier and feel better and find cute clothes at the second hand store *grin*.   

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