kayleesmommy2007
sheesh...
Mar 13, 2010
Well this morning I was getting ready to hop in the shower, and I noticed that my boob's are in my freakin arm pits!!! ahhhhh.... I always new that I would need a tummy tuck and a boob lift. BUT DANG... Already! They look so bad! I am so glad that knowbody see's me naked but me! lol I FEEL so sorry for the future guy who has to date me! lol I guess thats why God made Victoria Secret's WONDER BRA!!! lol Its just super frustrating! I am so grateful for this journey that I am on, I just get so mad at myself for getting this way!!!I hate to say this, but I get mad at my parents who LET me get this way at a young age. I have been over weight since I can remember, and that was at age 3. I gained 60 MORE pounds after I lost my mom 5 years ago to cancer, which put me at an all time high of 320!!! OUCH, it hurts for me to type that number. I went to councleing for a year and battled my addiction with food. I had gallblatter surgery in that same year, and got down to 240. WOW, I lost 80 pounds on my own. :-) Well I ended up FALLING in love with this no good punk guy, and got preggo! He and I haven't spoken since I told him I was preggo in Feb 2007!!! He has never seen his daughter, but I am okay with that! I worry though for my daughter, cause its not fair to her to grow up with out a dad! But anyway I got off track there for a minute. After I had my daughter I gained 40 pounds back, which put me back at 280! Thats where I started my weight loss journey! I lost 33 pounds pre-op with my dr's help!!! :-) I was so proud of myself fo losing that weight!!!
I have been stuck at my current weight for almost 2 1/2 weeks, and I am so frustrated with it!!! I HATE stalling!!! But I PRAY that in time I will start losing again! I really hope my body is not done yet!!! I am only 6 weeks out of my RNY, and if this FAILS, Well I would be the one who fails!! That is just how my luck works!!!
Well thats enough deep talk for me today!!! Hope everbody has a wonderful weekend,
Jess
