Food Anxiety and Firsts

Mar 19, 2012

This weekend was one for firsts.

Friday night was the first time I went out to eat with the family.  And I survived!!!  We went to Cracker Barrel.  Oh my, what to order...can't have my old favorites.  Decided on the hamburger steak, pinto beans, and mashed potatoes.  My daughter laughed on me because I chewed and chewed.  After I finished eating it didn't even look like I had touched my plate.  To go box please...

Saturday night was first family get together.  And I survived!!!  We had grilled burgers, baked beans, steamed veggies, and baked potatoes.  I ate at the table with everyone else with my very small portions.  And, of course, passed on the homemade banana pudding.  I did have some nausea after eating, not sure what did that.

Sunday was my first road trip.  I was very nervous about being gone for so long.  I packed my little cooler with waters, cheese sticks, and yogurt.  Not only would I be 3 hours from home but I was going to have to survive eating out twice.  And I survived!!!  My daughter was trying out for majorette at the University of North Alabama.  No way was I going to miss that.  She picked Texas Roadhouse for lunch.  I ordered the cheeseburger with no bun and ate a fourth of it.  I did fine with my snacks since I had planned ahead.  For dinner everyone wanted our favorite Italian restaurant - Ricatoni's.  It is wonderful but what in the world would I eat.  Certainly not my favorite - pepperoni bread.  My mother-in-law was ordering spaghetti and meatballs so I asked if I could just have some of hers.  I ate 1 meatball and 1/4 cup of pasta.  After leaving there my 12 year old asked if we could go to Krispy Kreme.  I can't say no so we went.  What torture!  I had nothing!  It was a great day; I didn't get sick.  Oh, and my daughter made the majorette line.  

Now for the food anxiety.  I find myself nervous about eating.  I haven't thrown up.  I have had one day where I broke out in sweats and felt nauseous.  I would have thought dumping but I had only eaten tuna salad.  But I am very careful about what I eat.  I find myself eating the same things again and again because I am afraid I will get sick if I eat a new food.  I know this wil pass but it is still frustrating.  

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