csbsteph
Progress
Sep 05, 2014
I just now realized that my bmi is 30, it's 30point. something but it's 30. Now if only I could be 30 again because that's how young I'm feeling. After about age 32 I started having all kinds of weird female health related issues that required several surgeries. Each surgery removed two very large grapefruit sized cysts and an ovary each procedure. I got FAT, but I can't blame it on the surgies or health problems completely I made bad food choices. I have an under-active thyroid that went undiagnosed for several years and lost lots of hair and energy until I was put on synthroid. I've had about 4 surgical procedures done to remove very large un-passable kidney stones. But the food I ate was the poision. I can't say that I eat completely clean but I try to eat as clean and protein rich as I can. I just feel better, I don't feel like my former run down, depressed, too sad/ashamed to leave the house & be seen by other humans self any longer. I'm 40 but I feel 30 again like before I had all the health issues. God thank you for this gift of renewed health, thank you for giving me a second chance to live a healthy meaningful life. There is beauty in everything and I love how I can notice that again. I still catch myself doing odd things;now I know my feet are no longer swollen sausages but I seem to look down just to double check several times a day. My nightmare wouldn't be failure it woud be waking up in my own old fat body knowing I could have had it all if only I had the surgery....I did have the surgery so the nightmare life is the one where I'm stuck in my old fat almost 300 pound body and couldn't get surgical approval. Just a bit of fears and rants as I am winding down ready for bed. Each and every day we are blessed enough to live to be up and walking around is a gift and should be lived as such, even if it's only sharing a hug, a sunrise or sunset it's a gift to be shared with your own inner soul or with those you love. Just a bit of my night wind down and felt like posting. Good night all and I pray we all realize that our gift of life is precious, whatever step of the process you're on YOU are on your way. God Bless.
