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Being Positive makes a HUGE difference
Mar 10, 2014
I've struggled with my weight my entire life, I was the chubby kid that was always picked last for kick ball, I was the girl in High School that fellas made fun of and then when I got skinny after yet another starvation bout wanted to date me; naw. One of my goals is to love myself because I don't think I ever have; meaning the few brief times when I had my weight under starvation/ephedrine control I sometimes felt that I looked nice but still felt so low that I dated a bunch of jerks & even got into an abusive relationship once long ago...
Self love is so hard, some see it as vanity; Lord I'm not vain I just want to be happy about how I feel about the way I look-not for the masses but for myself. I am happy about life meaning for the first time in my life I'm not in a bad relationship-I've made peace with that, I've got a loving husband, a beautiful daughter, loving family, cute little critters that look to me for care & love, I'm not rich but I'm blessed, I take care of what I have but somewhere along the line I forgot/neglected to take care of myself. This blog post is for others like me out there, or just simply for my own amusement of typing that I AM WORTH IT! I'm loved by some pretty special people, the numbers on the scale after surgery are gonna come down but I've got to put in the work too. I just want to be mindful of no matter how slow or fast the loss is that I'M MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE! And folks if you aren't a happy fat/big/obese/large -person-however you want to put it, when you get skinny you aren't ever going to be satisfied unless you find that happiness within yourself no matter how big or small you are; the size of the heart counts quite a bit.
