Anybody else experience these feelings right before surgery?
I have always been a pretty much outgoing person. Altho I have been heavy since childhood I never got depressed and was always very social. But it seems now with my surgery closely approaching I dont want to see anyone or go anywhere until after I start losing the weight. Its like I can taste being thin now and I dont want to even be seen in this body anymore. I also have this anxiety which I have never had before thinking that some crazy thing is gonna happen to keep me from being able to have my surgery and I will be stuck in this body which terrifies me. I was just wondering if any other pre-ops go thru these emotional changes?
I was the same way. Always overweight, but always a happy bubbly person. I too didn't want anyone to see me before surgery. I would make excuses not to go to parties or dinner. I wanted to START LOSING already!!! I want people to see me smaller. Even now that I'm a basically a month & a half out, I see myself making excuses instead of going out until I'm smaller. Kinda dumb, but I can't wait for people to see ME! Not the fat that I've worn my whole life. See my personality that's hidden behind the weight.
You're gonna have the surgery and you're going to lose it. Have faith. Anxiety is a normal feeling when it comes to this surgery.
You're gonna rock it!
I can relate to this anxiety -- I'm still not through the approval process (I am awaiting the results of a cardiac CT scan), and while I know that it's highly likely I will be fine, I'm still worried that this is the body that I'm going to be stuck in for the rest of my life. It feels horrible.
Chins up -- we shall overcome.
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Referral - March 2011 // Orientation - Ottawa - July 8, 2011 // Surgery - January 23, 2013
I can relate to your post, but for me the bigger I got, the less social I got. I am looking forward to being and looking healthier.
Good luck with your surgery!
After surgery about a week in I was a crying mess. I was uncomfortable, emotional, wondering what i did to myself. Now 3 months out I'm doing great and taking each day at a time.
Don't hide yourself away - take each day as it comes and ENJOY life cause we could all be gone tomorrow.
My surgery is scheduled for tomorrow & I keep checking my phone to see if my surgeon called to say it was off. Part of me feels like it would be the end of the world & the other part of me would be relieved. It's such an emotional rollercoaster.