Start my first ever dose of Clomid today...Yikes!

Well almost 3 years of infertility, and a diagnoses of PCOS,  has come down to this first attempt at pregnancy with medical intervention. I start Clomid today, and then a medication called estradiol that is inserted vaginaly for 5 days, then an ultra sound at day 15 and if there are follicles present, an HCG injection..

I am nervous.....I am afraid to hope because I think the disappointment of failure would kill me.  I feel so strange like, this isn't really happening to me or something, it's so hard to explain.

I am not a jealous person, it's just not my nature, but I find myself so green with jealousy at every pregnant women I meet that is is hard for me to even look at them, and I hate that! it's just not like me to act that way and I feel ashamed of myself for it.

As always, I know I can open up to my OH friends because you all understand like no one else does. Thanks for reading this, I am just in a tense moment and the feeling of insecurity is really effecting me today.

Good luck!

Don't beat yourself up for feeling jealous.  It is a perfectly normal emotion, one I think most women struggling with infertility feel.  Your time will come!  Before you know it, all of this will be a distant memory!

Good luck with the clomid!!!!! I too am seeing a doctor to help us get pregnant, though i do not have pcos. I started with 50mg of clomid which was ineffective for making me ovulate. I was then bumped to 100mg which did make my O according to lab results but I didn't get pregnant. So we moved to an RE and this cycle I took clomid 100mg cd 3-7plus trigger shot on CD 9. I had a sono on cd9 which showed 2 good follicles, one being a 20 :-). I triggered that night and I am now cd13. I did start progesterone suppositories today as well. Hope your road to a BFP is short ;) keep us updated :) Also, on clomid I had no symptoms... except for being dryer than a dessert. We used preseed to combat that.

Best wishes to you! 

The jealousy is hard.  I had a hard time with the fact that I felt jealous, too, because it made me feel petty and small. 

Infertility is hard, but it sounds like you are on a great path to getting pregnant.  Fingers crossed for you!

If Clomid doesn't work, (which it didn't with me and I had PCOS). Have them switch you to Femara... usually when you have PCOS clomid doesn't always work.

We used femara and have two beautiful babies now.

 

Good Luuc.