Thought I was mentally prepared
Then....in a group session the DR asked what my goals were...I said I was unsure...(not to be taken wrong) I had a goal of a size 14 from a size 24.I achieved this goal 8 weeks before scheduled WLS. He asked why are you not happy now that your a 14, that was your goal? I said I am happy, but I guess now that I made it this far on my own I am thinking I would like to see what a size 10 or 8 would be like. I have an end goal of 125lbs, I am 5'3". I guess I am wondering what size that would relate to..I have never been a size 14 before let alone something smaller so I have nothing to compare it to. Its extremely exciting and nerve racking all at the same time. I still see myself as a 24...will my brain start catching up soon? Did anyone else suffer this type of aniexty? I think I am scared that I still will be expecting more if I achieve the next goal.....anyone please if you did experience anything like this give me some advice.
My date for VSG is Aug 14 2012 and I cannot wait...but I need my brain to kick in!
Thanks
Rhonda
Lisa
I'm also 5"3' and was on and off right around where you were with your starting weight.
My goal weight is 130. My goal is to take a horseback ride across New Zealand. If keep my eye on the real prize 130 should be a snap.
I was 135 once in my life, for a brief shining moment. It was in my early 20's and I remember very clearly looking in the mirror naked one day and thinking to myself "Goddamn! I could be a Playboy centerfold!"
The problem with that time was that to get to that point I was working out about 3 hours a day for 6-7 days a week and eating nothing but tofu and vegetables. Totally unsustainable for your "average" person who has to work and might possibly want a social life. Work - go home - eat tofu - go to the gym - go to bed.
I'm now 46. I'm pretty sure I'd have to be working out (and by that I mean running marathons) 7 days a week and eating nothing bu****er and celery. Over the years (although I've never been "thin" except for that one time) I've sloooooowly gained about 120 pounds give or take 15 pounds over that from time to time. I've "maintained" about about 260 for a number of years. I eat healthy, I exercise, but without taking this step there was just no rational way for me to get this other person off my ass.
So I don't really have advice for you except to keep doing what you're doing - you still have time to cancel your surgery if it looks like you're one of the lucky ones. I would recommend that you think about that word "goal". What does it really mean to you? I think if you really look at it, a goal of being a size 10 is not really all that inspiring of a goal. How about coming to New Zealand with me? :)
However, I think it may help you to set some non-scale, non-weight related goals for yourself to help you focus, and help you feel like you are actively working on/towards something, and something that you can really celebrate when you accomplish. I have to say that has been one of the main things that keeps me going on what has been a difficult journey.
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As for your anxiety, normal, don't worry you will do great.
When will your brain catch up to your body, that takes a lot longer usually. I am below goal yet sometimes I just can't wrap my head around the fact that I'm not overweight anymore. I still pick out clothes in stores that are far too big. People say things like you are thin or tiny and I think they are joking. I'm still not quite caught up brain wise. Good luck to you on this journey.
As far as expecting more, it sounds like you're doing great on your own and once you have the surgery you'll probably get a lot smaller. I bet it will blow your mind if you get to a size 4 or less. I've seen it happen here. I would never expect to get lower than an 16/18 in pants. I have a wide frame and even at 150-160 pounds I was always in bigger pants and shirts than other girls my age even though I wasn't fat... more solid/muscular.
6 months into my surgery I have constant anxiety about so many different aspects about my future with regards to the surgery...
Thanks everyone...I am so glad I asked. I had a feeling you guys would come through for me.
A size 4...are you freakin kidding me...How awesome would that look and feel. YEEHAW.
Now to get to the other question/ statement..I agree that I have gone this far by myself why surgery, well. The fact is I always seem to put it back on. So this is more for maintence of keeping it off. I'm excited to have it, just nervous about not knowing what it would look like or feel it. I'm a very visual learning so its hard to put it into perspective...BUT a freakin size 4..HOLY CRAP!
I would be so into going to Austrailia or New Zealand...what a goal that would be. I will pursue looking into that further.
Again thanks to you all for some great advice and giving me some perspective.
Rhonda