skylark2011
in general
Aug 18, 2011
I was gonna go to the WLS support group tonight, but....nah. I went hiking at the lake with my girlfriends this morning and it was great. I usually get a siesta in but not today, so I'm more tired than usual. So...nap or group? hmmm.....uh...nap!!! I'll catch them next month. I am thinking I could make it to 279 by then, and can slap the nurse facilitator with my OH cards...take that biiiiiiiiiooooooottttccchhhhh!!! LOL! makin it rain with the OH cards on a heffa LOL!!! I am so not that way, but I can fantasize...sigh!Today marks 10 weeks since surgery, with post-op weight loss of 53.3 pounds. I'm 291.2 today. These 290s have been hard mentally and emotionally. I struggle to accept that the weight loss is happening and will continue to happen for me. I struggle to accept that I am no longer 300 pounds plus. I haven't accepted any of it really, I just eat what I'm supposed to eat and watch my body shrink. Now that I am about to move out of the 290s I am starting to think - OK, this is really happening, its not just a fluke.
After the hike, my friend asked me how much Id lost so I told her, and her jaw dropped!! It was so funny. She couldn't believe I was that much heavier, and I said I couldn't either. Ive often been told I carry my weight well, but like another poster said, how well can you really carry 100+ pounds of fat? Granted I didn't look like other women who were my size and height, but whatever. She asked more about the surgery, and after i told her about the ghrelin removal and what it does for me she exclaimed THAT'S CHEATING!!! You would have to know my friend to understand where she was coming from - but she was not trying to offend me she was partly joking cuz we both struggled with our appetites though she is normal weight - and I took it as such. I did admit that compared to the cycle of weight loss failure that I was on before, this is certainly easier for me, and I would choose it again in a heartbeat. She is really supportive of me and just a cool woman.
