Fat mind

Nov 23, 2015

So my fat mind is trying to take over but my new stomach said HE** No. I only wanted to try one more bite and then when it felt like a lump in my throat I had the nerve to drink something. Well after about ten minutesof feeling uncomfortable I threw it all up. 1point for stomach 0 points for mind. Today makes 2 weeks post op and I'm stilling learning. I have to get these times packed down so I can continue to lose weight. As my Doctor said no fuel no weight loss. Man, 4 week of puree foods. And Thanksgiving is Thursday.  But she did tell me about pinterest who had a lot of different puree ideas. Thought I was going to die at my cook out saturday I truly wasn't hungry but my mind said try it. I felt like I was at a crack head convention and I just got off crack 2 weeks ago. (I found a weird way to compare food LOL). But I just wanted it cause I saw it. But my stomach couldnt handle it. As of today I lost 22 lbs. I'm in a better place. The crying is over. Wishing I never done this is getting better. Truthfully I refuse to be the person I was 2 weeks ago. I'm ready for the new me..... I want to ride a horse, airplane, rollercoaster, for my husband to carry me. So you know tonight I'm going to enjoy my soup cause this is not going to be like this forever and even though I can't enjoy the food for thanksgiving, christmas is coming up and I'm okay with that. :)

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