Michelle_2975
Almost Christmas!! (11 Months Post)
Dec 16, 2011
I can't wait for Christmas this year! I have bought Homer some wicked cool gifts this year. He doesn't have a clue that I got him a tablet. He thinks that he is going to look for a good sale on boxing day to get one. Surprise, surprise, gosh I can't wait!I am making Christmas dinner this year. I know I shouldn't be trying new things when I am having guest but too bad, lol! I can't see how a person can mess up green bean casserole but we will see :) Homer, lately, has been really liking sweet potato fries so I am going t o try making the sweet potatoes with marshmallows this year. I am hoping that I have bought everything because I do not want to have to do anymore shopping. I went out this morning and had no patiences at all! I am glad that I am done my shopping.
THE NEW YEAR!
I have decided to not beat myself up about my eating. It is almost a new year. I look back on this one and see how much I have accomplished and I should be proud of myself rather than hating on myself. A new Year to make better eating decisions. I haven't really done any good grocery shopping lately. I have already started my shopping list for my next payday. No messing around, a new year and a new leaf. My goal next year is to loose another 40lbs. I lost 90lbs this year and I have my tool, I just have to use it. The honeymoon period is over with this surgery and now I realize that I have to work at it. I do not want to be fat!! I have come this far, too far to let myself slip back. So many people are proud of my weight loss, I don't think they know how easy it was to loose what I have. It seems like as soon as my wedding was over I have no motivation to loose. I will be happy to have a steady work schedule in the new year too. Time to go to the gym. I have had the membership since last May. I need to use it. Also, after work at the hotel I need to use the fitness room. I did once and that was it. If I could get into that habit. I will use their equipment 2x per week and my equipment at home 2x per week I should be okay in the exercise department. Next May when it is time to renew my membership I will not unless I really get into the group classes. I am also going to look into classes at the city-ran local rec center. I figure it would be cheaper for me to get a punch pass and use that. Anything has to be better than what I am doing now. I am wasting my money by paying for a membership. I had really hoped to enjoy working out. What I have liked the best do far was the aquasize. I really need to start that again. Anyways big plans for the new year. I am going to my hometown this summer and I want to look smashing! I do not want to go back and look the same as everyone saw me this summer. AND... I really want to get my plastics done Jan 2013 and will not get it done at this weight, although Dr. Andrews said that I would loose 15-20lbs in excess skin. I really want the total body lift.
Today is 11 months post-op for me. I haven't lost anything since September. I know my journey isn't over, it shall continue!!! For all the crap I eat, I still have to use a protein supplement or my protein intake suffers.I am looking forward to Christmas but once it is over I am looking forward to eating right, weighing my food, recording what I eat, exercising and getting rid of this left over excess weight! I can't wait to get some plastics done as well, then I can finally be without my spare tire. I used to call them love handles when they were small. After a few years it changed to the donut. As years went by and it got bigger I started calling it my spare tire. I can't wit to get rid of what some people affectionately call their muffin top. I just think it is gross and it sure does make my clothes fit funny. I can not shop for clothes that fit my shoulders, Just like before surgery, I shop to fit my mid-section. Chop, snip, cut, problem gone :) Although, I have stopped buying 5x tops and now just get an extra large with most tops. I tried on a sweater that I wanted from Zellers and I thought that the XL was too small. I'm sure if I was to have bought it, it would stretch just that little bit that I would want it to, but I don't want to have to buy clothes that I have to stretch.
This year I had many expectations that I thought I would fulfill. I think that they were too high. There are somethings that I could be doing better and that it is my fault, ei. exercise, eating habits etc. I figured that I would be this new person kinda. I did think that I would have more energy. I do not get as tired as I used to before surgery but I really thought that I would have more than I have. I really thought that I would have way more restriction than I do. Yes somethings make me feel uncomfortable but I really was hoping that I would have problems eating. The only problem that I have is eating too much, still. I can't believe how much I can eat. In the new year, like I've said, it is time to start weighing food again. I have only had 2 real dumping episodes. Once with a carrot muffin and once having mushroom soup with crackers. That surprised me. I have ate crackers and I have mushroom soup a lot. Mix together = dumping. Both times were horrible and I don't want to do it again but I wish that I would do it more often. I really thought when the willpower gave out, I would have this to keep me on the straight and narrow. At this point, I do not know if the skin under my chin is tightening up or filling out :( I wish that I had someone to talk about this to. I feel like no one really understands. I feel like everyone is doing so much better than I am. Enough wallowing!!
Here is to a great 2012!!! If anyone reads this I wish you a very merry Christmas. I am not religious, but please try to remember that Jesus is the reason for the season!
Peace out!
