Sick of my own voice

Feb 18, 2016

I swear, I have talked about my surgery so much, I am sick of the sound of my own voice. My every thought is surgery, almost every conversation is surgery. The diet, the workout plan, the recovery, the pain, the new body, the new face, the Hospital stay, is my chin gonna sag?, am I actually doing this?, is it too extreme?, for the rest of my life?, over and over and over again in a loop non-stop. 

Maybe because it's less than 2 weeks away. Maybe it's the fact that my weight loss has stalled for over a week now. I don't know exactly why my brain won't shut off but I pray it will. I'm sick to my stomach with all the thoughts and questions. Literally nauseous all the time. 

I just want this part over. 

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