Musings at 20 months out

Feb 20, 2013

I updated my numbers and felt a little pang when I saw I had "only" lost 3 pounds in month 20. So, I sat back to think about it, both how I felt and the reality. The reality is that I started the month at 166 and ended at 163. The reality is that I lost 2% of my body weight in a month. That's pretty damn good. The reality is that I went off the rails for a week while I was a retreat and the reality is that I got all six of those pounds back off. Yeah, I could have lost a couple of more had it not been for that week, but the rest of my reality is that I have to live. I have to have fun, have some wine, eat a little chocolate and unwind.

Does that mean that food is still tied to happiness? I don't think so, but at the same time it is. Celebrations center around food, but learning to balance those is important.

So, no. I don't have any true regrets about Month 20. I'm still 163 pounds this morning. I'm not that 375 pound girl that couldn't control herself. I do have control now - and, more importantly, I have the tools to reign myself back in when I DO get out of control. That's new. And kinda awesome.

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